Save Haven

17 - Dont hide from me

Warning: this contains the beginning of some smut

Pov Aubrey:

After my mother and my siblings had left, I was cuddled into Carlisles arms. We were laying in his bed, after I had taken a long hot shower to get rid of the feelings of the day. He was abstinently painting little pictures on my arm, making my heart stutter every now and then. I knew he could hear it, because every time my heart skipped a beat, he stopped what he was doing looking at me with smug eyes. "You can hear it, can you?" I asked, turning onto my back. Carlisle was laying on his side, propped up on one elbow, looking down at me softly. "I can." He simply answered. I knew his senses were sharper than those of normal humans, he told me that much, but I didn't exactly know how much he could sense.

"How good do you hear it?" I asked, suddenly very anxious for his answer. Looking out of the window, he chuckled. "I can hear the cars pass on the highway." My eyes went big on his confession. "That's like five miles away." "4.6." He corrected me.

"Oh my god." I felt my face flush bright red. "So, you hear everything? How can you stay sane with that? I mean you work at a hospital doesn't the noises get too much." But then it hit me. Eyes widening even wider. "Wait, does that mean you can smell my blood too?"

My utter confusion and embarrassment made him laugh with his soft tenor, that made my heart flutter. "Yes. I can hear and smell everything of you."

"What do I smell like?" I asked, now wondering, if he found it appealing. He rolled on top of my, pressing me down into the mattress. "You smell like a sweet flower bed. It reminds me off apple blossom and bluebells. Very intoxicating to be honest." Then he started kissing my face, placing soft little touches all over it. "I can hear how your heart stutters, when I touch you, or kiss you. I can smell, when you are afraid, or when you are getting aroused. The later really does get hard to ignore sometimes, because it makes me want to rip the clothes off you."

"You know when I...?" I stared at him in pure horror. Thinking back to all the times I was secretly ogling him. Well apparently, not that secretly. I mean I knew Edward could read my thoughts and Jasper feel my emotions. That's something I had to get used to, but learning that Carlisle was able to pick on to it made it even more embarrassing.

"Yep. Every time your hormonal balance changes I know it." He cockily said, nudging the tip of my nose. "But don't worry. You are not the only one that has a hard time keeping their needs a secret. I swear Edward would have thrown up many times, if he would have been able to." Hiding his face in my neck, he took a deep breath, inhaling my scent, a low growl rumbling through him. It should have scared me. Should have made me want to run away from him. But in that very moment, something unraveled deep inside of me. I was home. He was my home.

"Carlisle." I whispered, my voice inches from tipping into a sinful moan. Instantly, his head shot up. Eyes hungry. Black with lust. "Get out." He groaned, eyes not leaving mine. Only seconds later, I could hear the front door loudly fall into its frame. I knew they only did it for me. "You send them away." I concluded, unsure what to say or think. As if he sensed my fear, he backed off, leaning back on his knees. "I didn't want to make you uncomfortable." He said, voice strained like he was fighting internally for control. "We don't have to do anything. Its just precautious."

Sitting up, I reached out for him. My inner need to touch him nearly unbearable. "Just be careful." I whispered.

"Of course, love. Whatever you need." Slowly he came back to me. Pushing me into the bed once more. As he towered over me, I couldn't decide whether I was scared or not. His presence making me feel safe and anxious at the same time. "Don't be afraid, my love. I wont hurt you, I promise." He said, taking my face into his cold hand. "We have all the time in the world." Bending down for a kiss he wrapped me in his arms. Holding his weight with one hand on top of me, while the other carefully wandered down my side. I shrieked, when his cold skin touched my sensitive side, causing him to pull back. But as fast as I could I put his hand back. "You're just cold." I mumbled, a tiny smile on my lips.

My words made him chuckle. "You told your mom you wanted me to take more action." He said, slowly pushing his hand underneath my shirt. "Tell me, when I am overstepping a boundary." His voice was es soft as butter, smoothing over the last doubts I had according to this happening. I tried my best to stay focused, but my shaky voice snitched on how much he affected me: "You have been listening in, on our conversation."

He started kissing my neck, sucking my skin between his teeth. "I would view it more as making sure, my girl is alright."

"Your girl." I moaned, head starting to cloud from his scent.

"You like that? Me calling you my girl?" His voice didn't hide the smile forming on his lips, when he kissed down my throat. I could feel him taking the collar of my shirt between his teeth, tugging on it. "Stop playing with me, Carlisle." I whimpered, arching my back into his hands. "Take it off, please."

"Answer me first." He whispered. Lips back on my ear. The sweet growl that was accompanying his words, send shivers down my spine, letting my hair stand up in goosebumps.

"Yes, Carlisle. Please." I begged, sighting heavily, when he finally took my shirt off. Now I was only wearing soft blue panties. His eyes instantly trained on my bare chest. I could feel the blush creep into my cheeks. Suddenly feeling way out of place. I shrunk into the bed, trying to hide behind my hands, but he just pulled them away. "Don't hide from me, love. You are beautiful."

"I am not. I have scars all over my body. And you... You are this godly creature, literally sculptured from marble. Compared to you I am nothing." I whispered, feeling the tears prick in my eyes. Taking me into his arms he pressed me down into the bed, as if he wanted me to be protected from everything. "Love no. Don't think about yourself like that. You are the most beautiful woman on this planet, angel." My eyes shot up at the new nickname. "What did you just call me?"

He sighted deeply. "Emilia told me. She wanted me to know, that you have angel wings how she calls it." I froze on the spot, a sick burn starting in my stomach. "What else did you find out today?"

"I know everything, what you and your mom spoke about." He answered and I could hear the apology swinging in his words.

"So you know, I got my tubes tied? And that I nearly got killed at eleven?" I asked, pushing him away, so I could look in his eyes. He nodded. "I do and I don't care. To me you are beautiful and strong no matter what." He stayed silent for a while, before he spoke again. "Can I see them?"

"What?" My eyes shot up.

"Your scars. Will you show me?" There was nothing but pure honesty in his eyes. That's probably what made me give in. Nodding I pushed him back, then turning onto my stomach. As soon as his eyes landed on my back, he took a sharp breath.