Billy loomis x Stu Macher One shots || Book Six

"I wish you were a girl /he wished i was a girl"

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Billy loomis and Stu Macher have a complicated relationship. They snuck around behind everyone backs. Stu wanted a relationship with Billy, but Billy didn't want one.

Billy wanted to keep their affairs hidden as he was ashamed. He was ashamed of having a romantic relationship with his best friend, or can he even call stu that anymore?

Billy acted on the feelings that he didn't want. His actions caused pain to stu. Stu, on the other hand, loved Billy.

He loved Billy so much that he would do anything for him and even stay in the shadows as he watched Billy and Sidney together.

Stu knew that Billy didn't love Sidney because Billy told him, but stu's heart ached every time he saw Billy and Sidney.

He was jealous because he wished that Billy could act like that with him. He wanted Billy to hold his hand and kiss him in public.

Stu hated how many times he ended up crying to tatum about it. Tatum was patient and understanding. She would hold stu was he cried and ask what he's doing wrong.

She would hold his hand whenever she could feel him getting uncomfortable around Sidney and Billy.

She was always by his side and stu couldn't be more grateful to tatum. She understood his pain.

She loves Sidney, but Sidney was overly obsessed with Billy to even notice tatum.

As Billy's and stu's relationship started to crumble, Stu found comfort in Randy meeks. His other best friend.

Randy never understood how stu could love someone like Billy. Billy was literally the definition of the words toxic and manipulation.

Randy hated Billy with burning passion for hurting stu. For stringing stu along because he can't accept his feelings for stu.

Randy wanted nothing more than for stu to stop loving Billy, but stu could never stop loving Billy. He could never stop going back to him.

It was one afternoon that finally broke stu's already cracked heart.

Billy and stu had just finished having sex. Billy really had to blow off some steam since stu's entire lower half ached.

Billy was smoking sitting on the edge of his bed in only boxers. Stu had managed to get himself cleaned and dressed, knowing that Billy wouldn't want him after sex.

"Billy?" Stu shyly called out his name, and Billy hummed, turning his head to look at him.

"I..i love you." Billy tsk, "just go away." Stu frowned as he played with the zipper of his jacket.

"Why can't you say it back?" He questioned, looking at the floor.

"I wish you were a girl." Stu looked up , a surprise and hurt look on his face. Billy chuckled ,"it would've made it easier. I could've dumped Sidney, and I would be with you if you were a girl, but you're not."

Tears gathered in stu's eyes, and he ducked his head so Billy wouldn't see how much his words affect stu.

"It's wrong. What we are doing, it's wrong, but I just can't get enough of you. You're perfect, but I just wished that you were a girl, so it could make everything so much easier." Stu closed his eyes, holding back his sobs.

He sniffled, clearing his throat. "I sometimes wished that I never loved you." Billy's expression turned surprised and hurt before anger took over.

Before he could lash out, stu continued. "I can't...I can't deal with the pain anymore, Billy. I'm sorry I wasn't born a girl, I'm sorry I made your life so hard."

Billy stood up , "This..this is the last time, okay? And I don't...I don't think I could be your friend anymore." Billy shook his head

"No. No, don't leave, okay? Let's talk about this. I need you just like you need me." Billy said, reaching for stu's hand but stu backed up from him,lifting his head.

"No. What you need isn't me. You said that yourself. Randy was right, I deserve better than you." Anger flashed in Billy's eyes at the mention of Randy.

"Randy? You've been talking to that fuck?" Anger flashed in stu's eyes. "Don't call him that! At least he accepts me, unlike you! At least he doesn't wish that I was a girl! He's better than you, and he will always be better than you!" Stu spat out

"But you could never love him, like you love me, can you?" Billy asked, smirking as he pushed stu against the wall. Stu's face was pressed against the wall while his lower half was pressing against Billy.

Billy leaned closed, "he could never fuck you like I can." Billy thrusted against stu and stu couldn't help the sob that escaped him.

"Stop it, I don't want it anymore!" Billy backed up, and stu wrapped his arms around himself. "I don't want to do this anymore!"

"If I keep doing this, then i..I will kill myself because I just.. I just can't handle it anymore, Billy." He cried out

"Being with you just makes me want to kill myself. I hate myself because of you." Billy took a step forward, but stu flinched.

"Just... just love her instead." With that stu rushed out of Billy's room.

"Stu, wait!"
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Randy was watching a movie in his house when there was knocking on his door. He stood up and walked over, opening it.

"Stu?" Stu stood on the porch sobbing his poor heart out.

"I'm not seeing him anymore." Randy pulled stu into the house, closing the door, and stu hugged Randy.

"Let out stu. I've got you." Randy told him and stu whimpered, "he wished that I was a girl."

Randy held him tighter.

"He wished that I was a girl."

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Word count -- 956

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