One last bottle

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~stans pov~
Ive been stuck in a loop, a nightmare, its 7 am i wake up in my bed, i go to school i see kyle kissing Gregory, he turns to me and laughs, everyone starts laughing at me, i run out of the school in tears i see me sister, she gets in her car and leaves without saying bye, i run to my house i get to the bathroom i look in the mirror to see my father. i wake up its 7 am, the loop never stops.

Until i hear beeping i slowly open my eyes, the light blinded me but i recognized the beeping i was in a hospital this is new i hear commotion doctors running in and out to see if i was really awake and alive. I didn't feel alive every thing was a blur until i heard his voice kyles voice kyle I couldn't say it come on kyle kyle KYLE "k...kyle?" Yes i said it he hugged me i tried to hug him back but i could barely move he said something but i couldn't hear it.

I felt his warm body on me I could smell his lavender hair i heard faint crying I couldn't tell if it was him or someone else, i felt the warmth and weight shift to one side of me i felt his arm across my waist im sorry i couldn't speak i kept trying to say im sorry but it wouldn't move past my lips, i heard many voices my dads? Maybe my moms? I couldn't tell they all faded together but there was no arguing, surprising. My mind was blank it felt like i was talking in an empty room my voice echoing in my brain, I would respond but nothing was ever heard my lips didn't move the words echoed in my head, i was alive but i still felt dead.

A few weeks past I could tell thanks to kyle he came every day in the morning and after school until closing sometimes he'd bring ike, my father never visited my mother did sometimes shelly came almost everyday when kyle was in school sometimes she would be here when kyle was. Some of our friends came they days kinda just blurred together i was able to talk somewhat but I could say easy things M's where hard, a speech therapist helped me.

When i was able to fully talk my mom wanted to throw a 'party' to congratulate me but i knew what was gonna happen when i was better i was gonna go to the mental hospital again...but i tried to make the best of it almost everyone was there even my father. i was able to sit up I cleared my throat every one turned kyle cocked his head like a puppy "I w-wanted t-t-to say... I-Im s-sorry f-for t-t-trying to k-kill m-my s-self" i said moving my hand to help me i looksd up everyone was just staring at me like they had seen a ghost did i say something wrong? I looked at kyle I could see the tears forming in his eyes "I-I w-w-wanted to a-apologies t-to e-everyone" the silence deafened me i opened my mouth to say something else but my mother stopped me "its ok stanly you dont need to apologize im sorry we couldn't have helped you" I could hear how hurt see was by her breaking voice everyone started talking about how i didn't need to apologize i didn't really pay attention because i was focused on kyle he wasn't talking he was just still i could tell he was holding back tears

After a few minutes everyone went back to talking to each other kyle walked over to me and sat down he grabbed my hand "im sorry i pushed you away that night i should've helped you quit drinking in stead of pushing you away" his voice breaking I hadn't felt really anything since i woke up but him saying that made me feel broken "n-no i s-s-should h-have a-asked for h-help, i-its n-not y-your fault" i hated how i stuttered it made me feel weak. I squeezed his hand he squeezed it back he smiled at me i felt happy again i gave him a genuine smile

OK so what did yall thinkkkkk ok ill try to update this sooner if i remember lol