Vents

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Whenever I look at myself in the mirror, I question myself: What have I done wrong?

I mean, they are my friends, but they only talk to me when it's convenient to them. I am forgotten by everyone, except for ******. (And two people who talk to me in class, but completely ignore me at break time.) In the school gate, they always wait for eachother, but never for me. I end up listening to music without talking in break time, because if I distance myself from them, they'll keep bothering me. That's how it always is. And, one of them tells their mother about it, which tells my mother. Then she bothers me too, questioning why am I like this. Can't you just leave me alone, please? There are things you do not need to tell your mom, it's honestly annoying. Why can't I just be left alone in a corner? If you are to continue to not talk much to me, you can just stop talking to me already. Do I really deserve this treatment? I didn't do anything wrong. They say I am their friend, but I feel left behind. I feel like the both of them are replacing me, especially her. He is not as close to them as her. I don't feel like I fit in with anyone there, at school. I am always there for them, but who's there for me? I am tired. I don't want to keep pretending that I feel comfortable to be with them, because I lost this comfort I felt long ago.

The six of us, in my point of view, are now just five.