Those Who Whisper, Become the Subject of Whispers

3: Never Ending Neon Lights

I step into the party, instantly greeted with some loud rap song.

"Ayo, Larry!" Eli says with some sort of enthusiastic mindfuck in his voice.

I really don't want to be anywhere near this environment; this place filled with people who can only be described as cerebral. Their eyes stare at me and I wonder why I even try anymore. How can I play a game in-front of everyone but not stand around people.

My anxiety only heightens when I notice Caden in the distance. He's grasping a drink and laughing at all of his friend's jokes; god I wish I could laugh at this moment. I stare at him and make note every-time his toned arms move even an inch.

"Um...you good?" Eli says to bring me back to reality.
"Oh..uh...yeah!" I say with a giggle, hoping he doesn't notice my machiavellian nature.

Eli leads me to get a drink. His hand feels comfortable and warms my entire body. I can't explain this sensation but it feels like every issue is gone but this isn't a natural phenomenon. Truly, I always thought Eli was perfect but he's always been too far to reach, but close enough to long for.

I fill my cup with some kind alcoholic beverage, anything to distract me. I walk over to the corner of the living area and continue my observation of Caden and his cronies. To see that happy look on his face makes me realize that it may be getting bad again. If it gets bad again then my life will end in a single shot; one to my temple or maybe to my mouth.

Me and Caden lock eyes and he gives me a smile. Why is he smiling at me, he's meant to hate me and god do I hate him. His posture relaxes and he looks strangely comfortable yet his eyes tell a different story. They tell me he has some hesitation, hesitation to be near me.

I wish I could tell people how I think but they'd probably in turn think I'm crazy. I smile back and begin chatting with some of Caden's friends. Me and Caden never directly speak to one another but we linger around each other for a few hours before I feel a tap on my shoulder.

"Do you think we could go somewhere and talk...without all these people?"

I look up and notice the voice is Caden's. What could he possibly want to talk about? Is he gonna bitch me out or even worse tell me he noticed that I've been staring? I reluctantly follow until we reach an upstairs bedroom.

A/N: Larry is so me fr.