Feeling like I've lost all hope to survive. I've realised that one of the only people I trust cannot speak with me for a few day, weeks or even months. I'm growing crazy every day as he's not here to help me control my rage and emotions. I just want to go to someone I hate and hurt them in a very painful and long way leaving them for dead and see their cries of pain while I smile as I would've then ended my pain by killing the one that gave me the pain.
