Alpha Onyx

Chapter Seven

Allison/Jaynesia

I hold my hand out for my father to help me up. He does a smile pulling at his face because he knows at this point in my pregnancy the hormones are in control. I step towards Onyx, my anger boiling my blood. He thought dressing me down in front of the other alphas having his nose on my stomach was pretty great though. 

“Listen here you oversized pup I suggest you watch the words you sling at me. I’m not some groupie that followed you around in hopes of spreading my legs no if I remember right it was you who spread my legs and then nestled between them. Didn’t nobody trick you a full grown ass man into fucking me. I suggest you think back to a few months ago, let's say two and a half. I know that that alpha ego doesn’t leave much room for a brain but maybe rub those two cells together and make some better choices hell you can’t even keep it in your pants that's obvious from the woman waiting with the lunas.”  A hand stops me as I raise my hand to slap him. 

“You don’t wear his mark he will see it as a threat, sweet.” I turn around on him pointing my finger at him. 

“You told me I wouldn’t have to face this until they are born and then you push this on me. That isn’t right did Jasper know was this some plan of the two of you. I can raise my children without some one-shot alpha.” I storm out of the office slamming the heavy door and lean against the wall catching my breath. 

“That's my pup that means she is mine too move!” I hear onyx yell and the sound of yelling follows me and I run to my room and strip out of my clothes I need to let my wolf calm me. Though she hasn’t appeared to me she will tomorrow her presence is there and she helps when she can. A knock sounds from my door. I turn to see Jasper and Claire. 

“You get in here and you get out.” Jasper shakes his head.

“Don’t you think if I helped with that ambush I would have been there to witness it. I heard that Alpha Onyx accused you of some shady ass shit.” He snarls.

“He said I tricked him like some pack whore. We had something special.” I take a string that hangs from my pillow. “I thought we had something special he never said he loved me but the way he..” Jasper gags.

“Dude no I have to leave I can’t hear this shit. I need to go for a run before I kill him for treating you so badly.” I nod raising on my toes to hug him. He relaxes under my touch. I savor those little sparks over my body. “I love you but maybe you should mate with someone else against what dad says I don’t trust him with you now.” 

I have fought all of my life to find my place in this world and his words feel my body with sadness. I found peace in the quiet of this world even the ones that knew me never really knew me. I found peace in being me in the last few months. I found myself through my family and new friends. I know the woman I am now might not be what he expected but I had hoped he would love me no matter who I turned in isn’t that what love is. Love is supposed to be unconditional. 

“Are you okay?” Claire touches my arm and I shake my head as she pulls me into a hug as Jasper leaves the room. 

“I think I want to go for a walk to clear my mind.” I loop our arms as we make our way to the gardens. 

“I love this dress on you Jay.” I look down at the black dress. I lean down to smell a rose. “You know you can talk to me.” I look at Claire. Her black straight hair is tucked behind her pierced ears. 

“It’s just I don’t know how to say it. I thought we had one of those epic loves. The one they write stories about.” Taking a seat on the bench I absentmindedly start running my hand over my baby bump. “I just wish dad would have minded his own damn business. I could have done this all on my own. I don’t need him. I only need my family and friends. I just wanted to surround these babies in love.”

“I understand but from what I heard he showed your babies love it was you he hurled insults to maybe he will be a shit mate but an excellent father.” I glare at her and she shrugs. “Or maybe he just needed a few moments to take in everything. Maybe he never sensed your wolf and now he still thinks the woman he gave his heart to is a human.” 

“Maybe I made a mistake keeping them. Mom gave me an elixir. All I had to do was drink it but I wanted a piece of him. I didn’t know it would go this way. What about Ethan? He is supposed to mark me after the babies are born.” 

“First off Ethan needs to wait for his mate instead of making any haste decisons Jasper has said if he mates you that if he mates you he will be forced to step down as beta. Jasper believes in the mate bond and won’t waver on it.” 

“I just wish I never met Onyx. I wish I never slept with him. I’m tired of fighting everyday.” I scream, taking a pot and throwing it across the garden a hand catches it. My chest rises and falls fast as he walks towards me. I watch as each step is effortless. He sets the pot back down where he picked it up looking at me as he does. 

“Allison.” He says softly I almost don’t hear him. I don’t look at him, I keep my eyes on the spot I had thrown the pot. “We need to talk.” I ignore him, refusing to look at him. 

“Well I'm going to let you talk to baby daddy.” She touches my stomach. “See you later, my sweets.” She skips down the path opening the black iron gate and latching it back in place. I don’t breathe. I can't be close with him. 

“Alli.” His voice is pleading but I don’t look at him. I can't hurt too much. A tear slips as his thumb wipes it away. “Seems I’m always making you cry.” His tone is soothing but I sense the sadness lurking. “I didn’t know you were a wolf. I would have still done it, little red.” His hand lays on my stomach and the babies stir sensing their father. “Thank you. I'm so sorry that I didn’t see it before.” He moves a strand of my hair from my face. “Don’t regret what we had, I don't and never will.” He kisses my temple and I want to fall into his arms but I can’t. 

“Mark my words I will earn your forgiveness and when I do I will be the best mate to you and our children will never question my love for them.” 

“Don’t make promises you can’t keep.” I whisper as he moves from me. It’s the only words I can say and he only nods his head.