Recently timid, 'till i found you

Prologue

Is it true love or it's just infatuation?

How do you know if it is love or it's just infatuation?

Love means is the selfless gift of your heart, a lifelong sacrifice for your partner, enduring until your final breath and beyond.

While infatuation fades over time, and loving your partner can eventually become wearying, leading to feelings of falling out of love.

That's why I hate boys, my trauma is always here because of one person and that person was cheated on me. I don't know what's the real reason kung bakit niya ako niloko.

Siguro hindi lang ako enough para sa kanya even though ginawa ko naman yung best ko as his girlfriend and I did an effort because I love him so much.

Well, I've learned a lot about relationships, and now I'm focusing on personal growth, especially self-love. I'm embracing solitude and cherishing every moment of my singlehood. Since we're single, let's make the most of our freedom and enjoy each day to the fullest.

For sure maraming magagawa ang mga single na hindi na kayang gawin ng mga may ka relasyon na. Liberty is a must!

Our generation or it's called  "Modern Generation"  mga lalaki kasi ngayon hindi marunong makontento. Kaya nga sa mga librong nababasa ko about historical I want a boy who was born in 1986. Sila yung mga tunay na vina-value ang mga girls at hindi lang basta-basta ang mga babae because girls is not a toy.

You must know the worth of yourself at hindi na magpapauto sa mga boys. I've been experienced nagpaloko dahil lang mahal ko sya, I did everything to feel him happy, to feel him that i'm not boring especially I know to myself na hindi ako nagkulang sakanya.

Pero at the end of the day nagawa nya pa ring manloko. Well it's not my fault and i'm proud to myself that i'm enough hindi lang talaga sya na kontento.

All of these worst experience from my past relationship was heartbreak moment but at least I learned, unlearned and learned again.

Until one day. I met someone again it's Clark, actually my best enemy, before I felt anger with him because of his treatment. Ewan ko ba kung bakit umiinit yung dugo ko sa tuwing makikita ko siya.

Alam mo yun yung tipong 'di ko talaga bet yung presensya niya kaloka. Everytime i saw his dark eyes, wrath face, thick eyebrows, cute lips and his masculinity.

But all of these was suddenly change, I assume we're enemy forever. From hater to lover, from enemy to best love, my protagonist and i'm his inamorata.

Pinapakita niya kasi yung mga bagay na hindi pinapakita ng past ex ko. Pinaparamdam niya yung mga bagay na hindi pinaparamdam sa'kin noon ng ex ko.

Actually sinira nya talaga yung self love ko, ewan ko ba kung bakit bigla na lang nahulog yung loob ko sa kanya and since I have trust issue, I suppress my feelings with him gumagawa talaga ako ng paraan para lang hindi mahulog sa kanya.

But the more you suppress your feelings with someone the more you bothered at all things. Mygoshh! Natuto na ako na hindi na talaga magpapauto pa and the good thing lang talaga.

He take an action to prove me that he loved me and that's what I want may kasabihan nga na action speak louder than voice.

"Claire i know you're tired from your work your body need to rest " sabi niya and I just smiled. I know he cared a lot for me.

"Let me sleep for a while just wake me up if aalis kana" I said

"I will" he smiled and kissed my forehead. Naipikit ko na ang mga mata ko hanggang sa tuluyan na akong nakatulog.