GRASPING

I'm just wondering where my life is going.
Everyday I sit and think of what is, what could be and has been.
One moment you're on top of the pedestal, the next you've crashed down.
I'm clearing just talking in all different directions to the point that I even confuse myself.

How do you keep yourself together while falling apart?
What do you do first knowing what's the hardest?
I see that there's many options, but also limited by yourself.
You limit yourself because you're afraid of treading into the unknown.

My reflection scares me as it shows what I am.
Sometimes I want it to show me what I could be.
I hate me and scared of myself.
As I'm that disappointment I didn't want to be and afraid of what I've become.

Writing about myself makes everything I think visual.
I hate it yet it puts things in front of me I'm always avoiding.
The light I avoided is brought into the darkness I entertained.
With that I shall push myself into that light to crease out my flaws and destroy my unforgiving habits.