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Chapter 5

A/N- this chapter will contain sex, suicidal intentions and more so if your sensitive to those things please skip this chapter please 🙏

Me and the boys were back in the studio recording their first album ever! Nikki was writing up lyrics for the album and Vince was singing the songs that they have completed.

"Ay Y/N can you read these I don't know how I feel about them." Nikki asked. "Yeh sure what's the song called?" I asked. "Starry eyes." I smiled

I read the lyrics in my head, 'When she laughs
She's got the power of a child in her eyes
And when you cry now
She'll hold you like a man's supposed to be held
I can't get into words how I feel
I get it right on in this song, no, no, no
I set her free
Needed a friend to come back to me.'

"It's not done yet but is it a good start?" Nikki said. "Yeh it's great is it about anyone?" I asked "yeh, it's about you." Nikki said

"Aw thank you." I said "your welcome a-lot of the songs are about you but don't tell the others that." I smiled and laughed. "Okay."

We all sat watching Vince sing. I pressed the button to talk to Vince "start from the top that was not your best."

"Fuck you Y/N re roll the tape." Vince said I just laughed and stuck up the middle finger at him.

After hours of recording we finally finished 3 songs for the album. "Good job everyone sorry doc couldn't be here today he had other things to do but great job now let's go get drunk!"

"Where am I supposed to sit?" I asked. "Sit on my lap." Vince said. Nikki rolled his eyes so I climbed into the car and sat on Nikki's lap instead. He wrapped his arm around my waist. I tilted my head back and kissed Nikki on the cheek.

"Oi Nikki you stole my fucking kiss fuck you!" Vince said. I laughed and Nikki laughed as well. We finally got home. "Oh Nikki and I last night left Vince at the bar and crashed like 3 party's and stole their booze and drugs so all the booze is in the fridge and Nikki and I very generously gave you all a pound of coke each!" I said

Vince and Tommy came up to me and Nikki and gave us a hug. "You guys are the best!" They both said. Nikki and I laughed. "I'm going to my room if anyone needs me text me" I said.

I went into my closet and just sat on the floor and started crying I don't know why but I've been hiding my feelings from all the boys so no one would ask if I was okay because I didn't really, want to explain to anyone that I'm not doing good and I have a problem. In a week I went through a bag of smack. Which I realised when I went into my closet and found an empty bag.

"Fuck." I got up wiped my eyes. "I'm going out." I said. "I'll come with you." Nikki said. "Okay."

"So where are we going?" Nikki asked "To my dealer. I ran out of china white." I said "huh?" Nikki said confused. "Smack."

"Ohhhh okay, how much do you buy?" Nikki asked. "We'll I went through a pound in a week so I'm picking up like 4 pounds so I don't have to buy some for a month or more."

"Okay." Nikki said we walked for ages down town and we walked into an ally. "Hey Damon you got my shit?" I asked "yeh but who is that?" Damon asked "oh that's Nikki he's my" I got cut off. "I'm her bodyguard." I just rolled my eyes "okay so how much is all that again?" "Four thousand dollars." I just nodded and grabbed out my purse and counted four grand. "Here you go thanks for doing business mate." Damon handed my shit and I put it in my bag.

"You looking to buy anything sir?" Damon asked Nikki "what do you sell?" Nikki asked "well I sell smack, smack and smack, take your pick dickhead." Nikki rolled his eyes "never mind."