I didn't plan it to be this way between us, I never thought the whole thing would get so out of control between us like a cyclone. I'm just sorry you had to believe what everyone else was saying and not what I was pleading for you to believe.
Earlier this year
I don't often have a problem with saying my feelings to girls so why did I feel like I couldn't talk to her this time? I mean we had had conversations before like "how are you" and "do you have another smoke?" It was never this hard for me to talk to girls, whether or not I actually liked them. Ugh! Why do girls have to make my life bell? Gahd damn it. I only just met her and I felt like she meant more to me than any other girl ever had. After meeting her a few weeks ago I decided to find out who she was. Asking people who I knew were mutual friends I finally found out her name. Erin. This was bad, this was real bad. I should have stopped then, every Erin I have ever liked has turned into trouble of one form or the other. Erin (Eirinn) and I broke up because her mother didn't approve of me and we ended up being "together" a good dozen times, while Erin and I had just dated a few dozen times for the sake of we could never commit to each other. But she was different. I felt like she could be the forever. Even if it meant leaving my current girlfriend (which to me wasn't as bad of a problem)
Sorry it's so bad, this is why I'm only just passing 1CD English... ~Bod
