Stupid girl.
Let your fears control you.
Stupid girl.
He would have loved you anyway.
Actions I won't deny were stupid and wrong of me.
But shame isn't what lead me to keep the truth with me instead of telling you.
I am sick in the head when it comes to desire.
And this was a secret I wanted to keep.
My fear of how you would see me drove me to keep my secret and hide the truth.
In self hate and the pain it cause I swung a Slingblade to my lead hoping to bleed out.
My love had not once seced nor will it ever.
I know you hate me and I don't blame you.
I hate myself to.
Just know til my last breath I'll always love you.
