And then the bad boy kissed me

waking up

<3 Mia P.O.V <3

(Dream)

I'm three years old again and daddy and mommy took me to the park before play school. they dance and jumped around with me i remember me going down the slide and mommy picked me up and spun me around we were so happy. that day after play school i sat waiting my coat and mittens on and my rainbow bright lunch bag but nobody came, my nursery nurse Lisa phoned and phoned but nobody answered. when my aunt Jessy picked me up she said we where gonna watch the tweenies and play games, but when i got home daddy was screaming "i don't want her she is stupid and useless and so are you" he had a princess with him her name was em she looked like Cinderella. i said hello and she laughed at me and said I'm worthless i didn't know what it meant but i always remembered. when i was 10 i had a child minder called Fiona she burnt me and said my daddy was right. from that moment onwards i sat in my room and read books i never came out got worried. and called a man to talk to me. i remember saying "i have to be better i have to be the best" 

*flash forward*

I'm in a living room with a man he is amazing. i don't know him, he has a lady with him blond and Young fresh out of collage. the phone wont stop ringing i go to pick it up he says he is leaving me. we argue and he says poppy is worthless. who is poppy? there are pictures of me and a baby I'm guessing she is our daughter. when he leaves she is a constant reminder of him and i cant take it. she is ten i get ill i don't eat and she has a child minder look after her. from then on she changes and never leaves her room my daughter is got i get more and more depressed and give up. my daughter is nearly 18 and pretty amazing i envy her and all she has become i beg her not to give that away. and her i am on my neighbors door step planing to go to coffee then to a club. but it goes wrong poppy always rings me my neighbor says its find we get more and more drunk. we never sober up. when i pass out nobody put me on my side and i choked on my own sick. i have left poppy out in the world alone and don't want her to make my mistakes. 

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I'm standing in a Field of white and i see my mum i run to her. "mum i saw my future with Sam i cant go through with it I'm sorry id rather die alone" she looks confused and hugs me i hear a faint whisper "that was your future without Sam don't make the same mistake i did don't avoid the one who's give you there everything stay with him hunny. i love you I'm sorry i wasn't a good mum. don't blame Sarah for what happened i chose to get drunk." a lonely tear dropped down my cheek and  she was gone "i love you mum" i whispered through tears 

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I'm in a hospital and i can see myself and i see Sam i try and say hello but he cant hear me. "I'm sorry Mia please wake up don't leave me" he starts to cry my name i can feel him touching me and he whispers in my ear "i love you" i want to say it back but i cant. i feel the kiss he plants on my head and i want to kiss him back. i hear my mum whisper "fight it and you will wake up, don't give up keep your heart beating."

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<3 Sam's P.O.V <3 

I'm sat next to Mia's hospital bed they said i can stay as she might not make the night. I'm crying and i lean over and whisper in her ear "i love you" i kiss her head and cry her name i wish she would wake up. then something mover and i hear a faint coughing noise. i buzz for a nurse and pass Mia some water and i hear a faint whisper saying "i love you too Sam i really do" 

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after about 4 days Mia is able to go home. she is looking healthy but is still grieving for her mum. today is the funeral Mia stands up to the podium and start to speak. i feel my heart race as i see her pain and it hurts.

<3 Lilian's (Mia's mum) P.O.V <3

I'm standing at the back of my funeral and i watch my baby girl stand up to the podium her heart is breaking i can see it from here. it seems everyone i knew shown up even my ex husband. Mia starts to speak "my mother was an amazing and lovely woman even tho she was depressed and torn she always made me smile not with words but with the amount of tissues she used while watching a walk to remember, the fist memory i have of her was on my first birth day i blew out my candles and she sang to me i loved her voice i loved her mum i know your out there and can hear me." tears where rolling down her cheeks i walked towards her and she looked right at me. "i love you we all love you and we always will." by the last words she was in a fit of tear and collapsed to the floor in tears screaming my name.

WOW that was soo hard to write I'm in tears i hope everyone else is touched by this chapter please comment and vote please don't let this note go a miss xxxxxx