I am taken

University year, semester 1

The University year has started and I still have this stomach pain whenever I walk past him, whenever I think about what he did to me.

I always say, I forget but I never forgive. I will forever have this on my mind, and even if time goes by and things are behind me, I will feel the anger from time to time, when I think about this.

Sometimes, when I put my head on my pillow and I am about to sleep, it crosses my mind. Maybe I will never find peace, maybe I am meant to live with bitter feeling or maybe one day I will totally forget it happened.

The situation is now too complicated, his team sticked with him and Weston's team stopped hanging out with him. It's awkward because although they have never been best friends, they used to hangout together from time to time. Now we are two distinct groups.

Eventually, everyone heard what happened, because Tom  could not keep it to himself when Yoann told him.

We discovered her name, she was Dahlia, THE second year. We also discover that she knew about us since day one but never backed up.

I don't see Weston daily, and I met new people on campus so my life is balanced.

But I don't know how to behave, how can I forgive, how can I let it go ? 
Weston thinks differently, he is a forgiver, he is in peace with everyone, I wish I had his mindset. I wish I didn't cry myself to sleep every night since then, I wish I didn't have the stomach aches whenever I thought about that day.

Him and I are still private about our relationship because of the way it happened. But he comes pick me up every day for lunch and our friends know that we spend a lot of evenings together.