When I was little, I used to think that you had to wish for a tomorrow. So every night before I went to bed I would go on my knees and look up at the sky and ask for another day, today I just sit on my phone or do something other girls do but I'm not at all like other girls, I'm Belle a 5-10 15-year-old. Yes, I am that young, I was born on a stormy June night in Phoenix Arizona. I was in a sandstorm when I was just 3, it was 12 years ago. People like to remind me of the storm and when I used to sit on my knees and plead for another day. I told my best friend Jeremiah about how I used to ask for another day. I did this up until the 6th grade when I realized nobody did the same. I was staying at Jeremiah's house for the week while my mom and dad were out of town, I crawled out of bed, and I hit my knees and asked for another day. Joshua started cackling when he saw me, it made me feel stupid. I was so lucky that I had Jeremiah because he did it with me.
It's finally June school is out now and I couldn't be more excited. Next week is my birthday party. My parents are finally going to be home so we are having a big party for me. This is so exciting. I'm 12. I start 8th grade next school year. I am so nervous. I have been sitting in my room planning all day. I have an entire journal filled with ideas and drawings for my party, racing party, there are going to be 100 kids there.
Ok so after my party we are going to the movies, we are going to see IT it is supposed to be super scary. I'm excited,
Well nevermind my parents had to leave so Joshua parents had to do everything, his parents are more my parents than my actual parent are, they were there for me on the first day of 7th grade and my own mom and dad where not one of my most important years and they weren't there, how ridiculous is that. So anyway it's time to go get ready. I'm so excited. My parents got me a racer outfit. Joshua and his mom and dad are the first people here not even his brother i'm so happy, i hope he doesn't even show ugh im so tired of seeing him he always has to have some smirk comment, i walked down stairs and was in awl joshua looked so handsome in his racing outfit, my parents got him a matching outfit like mine finally a few more people showed up and he walked in looking ever so cute but also kinda funny because he looked like a checkered flagged but jeremiah was not with him at all finally i have a chance to talk to jason. Sadly that ended in a matter of seconds when Jeremiah walked in with a girl. It had to be lavender, the one girl who hates me. I probably shouldn't have said that he could bring someone. We started the party off by watching Fast and Furious i love that movie then we went outside and had a bumper cart race, finally it was time for the cake it was a race car i blew out the candle then, it was time for the presents i opened the one from my parent and all the note said was go to the garage so i did there was a race car in there was a royal blue race car and a bow on top there was everything i needed to be a racer joshua came in shortly after and smiled saying
" Now you can finally go racing"
I started tearing up, Joshua and I walked back to the table where everyone was waiting. I opened the present from Joshua and it was a helmet and a bodysuit like the one i had on, then it was Jeremiah's present of course he got me himself. I have to open the rest of the later because it was time to go to the movies. I sat next to Joshua and Jason I had to spend the night at Joshua's house again but I managed to convince his parents to let us stay the night at my house. Me and Joshua ate cake and I opened the rest of my presents I opened the one from Jason next it was a beautiful diamond charm bracelet I got a text it was from Jason,
" did you open my present" the text read
" yes it is ever so beautiful" I replied
" I made sure to get one with dolphins and elephants" he said
" do you want to come back over to watch a movie" I asked
" sure what movie do you want to watch" he asked
Jason came over and me him and Joshua the other Fast and Furious, then we watched the conjuring jason got so scared i was laughing at him as he jumped it was so funny, he screams like a girl its so funny it's only the beginning my stomach just plummeted i look over i see him holding my hand and then he looks down and lets go of my hand we looked into each other's eyes for what felt like forever after the movie was over I tuned on some music and then I got to leaning up the stuff I hadn't put on the bracelet because I couldn't get it on jason walks up to me as i'm sweeping up the confetti and asked if I had his present on and I showed him that I didn't he put the bracelet on me and I smiled, all I could think was he's holding my hand and i was so happy. Then Jeremiah came in the house and asked who the bracelet was from and Jason said it was from him and Jeremiah got really mad and stormed out. I think Jason felt bad but he didn't run after him like he usually would. I asked if everything was ok between them. Jason didn't answer i don't think he heard me there was letters on the bracelet they where BM my name is but my last name is johnson i asked Jason why there was different letters he asked what i meant i showed him it said BM he told me it was supposed to say BE but they got it mixed up some how so he called the place and he is getting it fixed. A few weeks later he came back to my house and put on the new bracelet. It was so shiny and beautiful we put on some music and danced around the house until Joshua came in, then we had a little dance party. My parents called a hour later joshua and jason got quiet and i answered on the other line i can he commotion and load speaking,
" mom dad you there" i asked angrily
" sweety can you hear us" its my mom
" yes i can hear you just fine...whats wrong" i concerned
" well you know how you always wanted to be a racer..."
The moment of pause is concerning
" well you have your first race tomorrow"
I can't believe it i'm actually going to race like against other people i'm scared that i wont be as good as the other people
" you mean it like actually?" i had a questions look on my face
My parents hung up the phone and I just stood there for a minute. Jason hugged me with excitement and congratulated me, Joshua was just standing there as me and Jason hugged, my parents didn't say here at so i texted them again asking where it was in las vegas so we had to call Jason's mom to see if he could come with us he mom said he could so we loaded up the trailer and called Joshua's mom to hook up her truck to drive us there of course she agreed so we headed on our way i took out twelve thousand from my safe i will still have a lot left over but any ways it is time to go Joshua is in the front seat and me and Jason was in the back we were all talking and then i turned on some netflix and started watching tv Jason was looking over my shoulder and asked if he could watch too so i took out an earbud and gave it to him and we watched grown ups it was so funny we laugh a lot today and after a hour we had to get gas so i payed for gas and drinks and a snack for us i am paying for the hotel rooms one for me and Joshuas mom and the boys so we can get to the track early enough to register its 10 we need to get going i got registered to race and waited i gave all of them each 300 dollars to spend on food, Jason, joshua, and his mom all went off for a bit and Jason came back to the pit with a little box and inside was a little fairy one of thoes that you put on your dash so i got in my car though the window and put it on my dash and filled my car me and Jason put the tiers on the car and i had change into my suit so i closed the doors and got in to my royal blue bodysuit i opened the trailer door and we got our schedule and i turned on some music it was time for the latemodle Jason wished me good luck and i got out on the track and i got second place I got out of the car and hugged Jason and told him i got second pace he congratulated me and we waited for a couple minutes and Joshua and his mom came to the pit and they had to run home really quick so they can get Jeremiah so i helped them unhitch the truck so they could go so me and Jason had 4 hours to wait and race me and Jason got some food i got some popcorn and Jason got a hamburger and we headed back i had to race again and got first place this time i got on some tv screen and they asked me who i would like to thank
"I would like to thank my parents for getting my car and best friend and his mom for bringing me here and i would like to thank my classmate who is here with me and helped me with everything i needed" i said I went back to the pit and jason hugged me i was confused as to why he gave me a hug but all he said was thank you for including me I didn't know it was so special him if i did i would have mentioned him first and not last in ten minutes I have to race again this time I only got second place but i'm still proud of myself so now all that's left to do is wait for joshua and his mom to get here they got here a hour later and I loaded up the car and jason helped hitch the trailer he tried at least but it wasn't right so i had to fix it but this was fun I got a text from my parents say that they saw me on tv and that they were so proud of me I thanked them though they didn't deserve a thank you they couldn't have even show up to watch me race so I just ignored there next text and I gave Jason one of the earbuds and we watched movies for the rest of the night. We got home at 7:30 so we all just watched tv at my place after we got everything out if the trailer, it only took like 10 minutes then we watched movies we had some today things couldn't have been better today was perfect, I had the best i cant wait to do this again, I get another call from my mom. There was an accident on set and my dad was hurt it was bad I know in supposed to cry or get upset but I didn't show any emotion I just hung up the phone and ran to my room and closed the door I didn't cry she told me they where a hour away and couldn't get to me I packed a bag and at the end of the night jason came up stairs and asked if I was ok I told him that I was but i was the furthest from that my heart was racing as he stepped in to my room slowly, he looked around at the walls and saw i had no pictures with my family, he asked me why i didn't have any pictures with my family, it was hard to explain how my parents never were there. He gave me a long hug like a comforting hug and asked why I had a bag packed, I told him my dad was in a accident and I couldn't stay home alone right now. Jason called his mom to ask if I can stay the night at is house and in the guest bedroom he mom agreed and I grabbed my bag and my purse and my other stuff, the radio was playing a particularly sad song jason turned it off right away I started to tear up his mom is driving us home today I got another call from my mom I let it go to voicemail
" Hey honey it's mommy daddy is ok but we still won't be home for a while daddy is in a coma so we have to restart the movie with different person so it'll be another year sorry baby but on exciting news we got you another gig for racing we are so proud of you its at the Sonoma Race Track i love you baby be safe mommy and daddy will always be here" Wow what a pathetic voicemail they were never there for me and they only want me to get as rich as them so i'm not a disappointment . Jason's mom heard what my mom said she was sorry for what i had to through, she asked me who I had i got a been living with this entire time i told them i was livin with joshua and his family and sometimes by myself with being checked in on she looked scared and confused I was more confused than she was I had no idea why she was asking me theses things she asked me if I would like to stay with them for a while but I couldn't I had a race to get to I could ask if they have a truck you know I could also ask my mom and dad to buy me a truck that would be easier on me and my friends and their parents i put in my ear buds and tuned on Billie Eilish its my feel better about my parents playlist and how they just want me to get famous like them and have a famous boyfriend or a popular one because that is the only thing they care about kinda sad isn't it yeah I know it makes me mad too a new song came on its called "chlorine" i started humming it and Jason asked what I was humming so I told him he didnt seem impressed by the name after that I read a poem "Monday's child is fair of face/ Tuesday's child is full of grace/Wednesday's child is full of woe/ Thursday's child has far to go/Friday's child is loving and giving/ Saturday's child works hard for his living/And the child that is born on the Sabbath day/Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay" I don't know what it means but it was still interesting it was nice to read during a car ride, I felt alone most of the time but around Jason I feel alive like I'm no longer alone like I can do any thing. They didn't even tell me where they were having me race at I have no clue what the expect me to do just show up to a racetrack an say that my parents paid for me to race so here I am to race well it was a ten minute car ride until we finally got to Jason's house it's a lovely house, I finally got up the courage to walk in it looked quite lovely it looked like a cottage it was the best looking house I have see yet. IT LOOKS BETTER THAN MINE. I was so surprised the inside was so nice there was a buffalo hanging on one of the walls. Jason showed me to the guest room. It was beautiful. There was wallpaper that looked like mountains. I called my mom to check on my dad after I got situated, there was no answer. I started to panic why didn't my mom answer is something wrong? did something happen. I heard a subtle knock on the door and it slowly opened and Jason walked in. He had one hand behind his back. I could only wait for him to pull out his hand, inside his hand was a little note. I open the not carefully I don't know why I was so scared,
" Hey I know you're scared but I'm here for you I will always be here, if you ever need to talk I'm right next door and you can wake me up if you want I don't mind if it's 3am and you are scared to sleep alone I will protect you from anything."
After I finished reading, I started to cry. It was so sweet. Jason came came to see if i was alright and i just hugged him and didn't want to let got just wanted to stay in that moment forever it was magical and perfect the way he was holding me it felt like I was flying like nothing else was there it was just us only us with our arms wrapped around each other, I can feel his chest breathing in and out. He is perfect. I realized my grip when I heard my phone ringing. It was my mom. I was scared. I grabbed Jason's hand as I answered the phone.
" Hey honey I see that you called me and i just wanted to return your call"
her voice was off key like she had been crying and tried to disguise it then it became normal again
" Is everything okay what is wrong"
I hear a voice in the background. I can't make it out though.
" where did you set me up to race at the are a lot of tracks around"
I tried to sound normal but i was so relieved
" oh honey I gotta go mommy and daddy love you so much"
"Wow, that is really helpful," Jason said with a smile.
I smile too I was used to that stuff though I heard a ping like a text so I looked at my phone and found a text message from my mom it read
" hey honey bear sorry mommy had to go so soon the doctor walked in and had to ask questions about daddy, daddy with have to go into surgery but I will keep you updated we love you so much honey bear be safe kisses mommy and daddy"
It started to feel like my chest was closing in, and I started to breath heavy and, everything felt strange, I squeezed Jason's hand to get his attention, he puts one hand on my shoulder, and told he was right there and for some reason I could breathe a little easier, he tells me that my dad will be just fine and I felt so much better. Jason said he was going to get me some water, Jason walked out the door to get some water while I took deep breaths. A few moments later Jason walks back in with a cup of water for me to drink, I drank the water and I could feel my chest loosen to a normal feeling position Jason took me in to his room so we could watch a movie we ended up watching fast and furious my favorite movie we watched tokyo drift that is the 3rd movie of the series of movies I can't wait to see if they make another movie it's such a good film, my eyes are feeling heavy I eventually fell asleep on Jason's floor, I woke up in the middle of the night with the moon light shining on my face. I went into the room I was staying in it was dark and I couldn't see anything thank gosh I had my phone I would have ran in to everything, I turned on the flashlight I sat down on my my bed and smiled me and the guy I like was watching my favorite movie together alone without the rest of the class or my best friend wich that part I didn't really care about, I lay back in the bed trying to go back to sleep when my lit up a loud ping seemed to echo in the room. I looked at it, the screen lighting up my face and everything close to me, it was my mom again. She told me my dad was out of surgery and was now in the room. I was kind of annoyed with her. How could she let my dad get hurt, she was supposed to keep him safe. I fell asleep after I finally stopped crying. I woke up really and went out for a run. I didn't care where I ran, I just needed to run. An hour and 9 minutes later I reached the house again. It was 6 when I got home. Jason was waiting for me like he was mad. Thousands of thoughts raced through my head.
"Where did you go" he had a worried tone in his voice
" I went for a run to clear my mind from the text I got this morning"
I finished my sentence choking back tears
"I was worried about you" he said the words I have waited my whole life to hear.
" I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you" I say tears falling out of my eyes
He gets up and hugs me I can feel the warmth of his chest pressed against the side of my face, his heartbeat thumping. I feel myself melt inside. What is wrong with me why am I falling for the popular guy. It just feels wrong. I'm not even that popular so why does the most popular guy like me. I go to the guest room and pack my cloths so that we can go to my house to get my car and my suit. The maids are there so I know I don't need my key.
