paralyzed

chapter 1

When I wake up I'm just a normal girl. I'm quirky and funny, around my mom at least. Then I take my blanket off and call my mom, to help me get into my wheelchair. I don't know how to say this, but I'm paralized.... There's no good way to say that I have no legs. I feel like I'm a failure to my mom we can't have a house with stairs and she has to take my wheelchair everywhere. I hate it and I know she's just pretending they doesn't hate it. I'm 15 in grade 10, which means I'm in high school. Like I said before I'm quirky and funny around my mom, at school its totally different, I'm bullied a lot everyday. Before the accident happened I was one of the popular girls. As soon as I had that accident they left me and ignored me. Forever. I'm alone. I hate being paralyzed its probably the worst thing, next to death. But even my family doesn't except me. My real dad left when I was 13, after the incident happened. Well I guess I will tell you what happened since it basically ruined my whole life. When I was 13 my friends and I were hanging out by the train tracks, we didn't know trains went on it because we never seen one on it. One of my friends said we should take a picture on the tracks so we lied down on them. I was on the bottom and they were all on top of me for the picture, all I heard was a scream and next thing I remember was waking up in the hospital. At least I think that's what happened, its all a blur. About a month later my dad got tired of taking care of me (because I had alot of recovery) so my dad and my mom got it a big fight about me and he just kinda left. Just like that he was out of my life, I haven't talked to him since, I miss him terribly. Sometimes I wonder if he misses me. Ever since he left we have been living off welfare. My mom said she saving up for me to get prosthetic legs. I don't know how I feel about that, but if it means no wheelchair, I guess its okay. My step dad is pretty nice, my mom met him about a year ago. Were still on welfare because he has his own company that's a fail as a business. He doesn't live with us yet but he's moving in soon. I've never really met him but I've texted him on my moms phone. I don't think be knows about my legs but I hope it doesn't ruin my moms Relationship with him. I don't want to be the reason she's single, that's horrible to think but it might happen. I mean what if it does, I'm going to feel even worse about myself. If it does I don't want my mom to tell me.