I was sleeping and as I expected I was dreaming again of the thoughts and questions that have been confusing me for a long time.
Matagal ko na itong gustong itanong sa aking sarili na bakit lagi itong balik ng balik sa panaginip ko. I was really confused and curiosity eventually but who answered my question? No one answered my question because I too can't answer my own question.
Ako nanga ang nagtanong dahil naguguluhan din naman ako tapos ako pa ang sasagot sa sarili kong tanong? What a stupid.
"Oh, you already here.." I heard the woman say in my dream. She in front of me but she just seat in the beautiful rock that I always catch her when I enter this dream.
Hindi ako sumagot o tumango man lang dahil hindi talaga ako sanay na may kinakausap na ibang tao. Sa tuwing pumapasok ako sa panaginip na ito ay siya ang unang nagsalita at laging nagsasalita. Hindi ko binubuka ang aking bibig sa tuwing magtatanong siya o may gusto siyang malaman.
I'm comfortable with her but I'm not trusting her..
"Still you didn't talk to me.." She said but her voice full of sadness. I frowned, why she sad?
"I hope one day, you will forgive me what I did.." Still she doesn't look at me when she tells that.
I couldn't bear not to speak because of curiosity about what she said today. Sa tagal na namin nagkikita sa panaginip ay ngayon ko lang narinig ang mga salitang binanggit niya ngayon.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
This time she looked at me with her sweet smile. Kahit hindi ko nakikita ang mukha niya dahil malabo pero ang bibig at ilong ay nakikita ko.
"That's what I like when you speak.." Saad nito. I looked at her when she stood up and I stepped back when she walked towards where I was.
I looked at all parts of her body. She has a blue skin and white hair. Something was also hanging on her head as if it was part of her head and she was wearing a long black dress that when she was walking it was hanging on the plants around us. She is more beautiful when she walks in front of me.
Nang nasa harap ko na siya ay tumingala ako dahil napakatangkad niya at para makita ko ang mukha niya. But sad to say hindi ko makita ang buong mukha niya dahil malabo ito pero nakikita ko ang bibig nito at ilong. She has kissable lips and pointed nose.
Nagulat ako ng hawakan nito ang mukha ko. She touched my cheek carefully not wanting to hurt me.
I closed my eyes because of the softness of her palm and I could feel her every caress on my cheek. Hindi ko maitindihan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.
I can't explain the joy and longing I've been feeling for a long time with every caress she made on my cheek.
I didn't notice that there was a sticky liquid on my hand. I realized and was surprised.
Why is this happening? it shouldn't be. Why?
I looked at her and she was just looking at me and I saw a sad smile on her lips.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry for everything..." She said and continued caressing my cheek.
I frowned."Why you say sorry?"
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Olympus University THE JOURNEY
Fantasy"I don't know who whatever my parents are. I'm not looking at them eventually, but I admit I'm looking for care from a real parent..." By Calista