THE BANGTAN BOYS #2 (JIKOOK MPREG)

CHAPTER 20

              (Four years ago)

Namjoon’s Pov:

Four years ago

Life was the sweetest thing to me back then cause we were happy – I and the rest of the boys – especially Jungkook.

He was a brother to me.

We all ate together, shared the same bed, had so much fun.

The rest of them were flirts, but as for me, I avoided anything that involved love. I didn’t want to fall in love; I was scared of heartbreak, and the heartbreak that had occurred is part of the reason I became this cold hearted.

Jungkook always wanted me to fall in love, but I was scared to. But, one day, I broke my own rule. I fell in love.

He was a poor, ugly guy with a scar and the Bangtan Boys were surprised I had chosen someone like him.

His name was Park.

The first day I met him was in a garden and I don’t know how he had gotten there.

I and the rest of the boys had gone for a meeting and I had decided to go for a stroll and when I got to the garden, I heard someone singing and it had sounded like the voice of a fallen angel.

I was bemused and listened enthusiastically as he sang in his tiny sweet voice and it captured my soul.

When he was done, I came out and met with him and the moment he saw me, he ran away.

He was so scared and naive, dressed in tattered clothes, and walking barefooted.

I called after him, but he didn’t stop to look at me and it startled me.

That night, I was unable to sleep as his voice kept replaying my head. It was so beautiful. Who could he be? I thought.

I was worried by it for days and fortunately for me, I met him again. But, this time around, it was when my car had ran over him while he was running across the road.

He became unconscious and I took him to the hospital.

Indeed, the scar on his face made him really ugly, but I don’t know, I just liked him.

I sat on the hospital bed and watched his sleeping face the whole time. When he finally woke up, he was scared and tried running away, but I stopped him. He was so scared.

I tried making him feel free around me, but he told me his aunt was going to kill him if he didn’t return home immediately. But, I couldn’t lose him again; not so easily.

I pleaded with him to just allow me feed him since he was injured and he agreed.

I ordered some foods for him and I was surprised at the way he had eaten like an hungry lion. At that moment, I got to understand he was going through hell in the hands of whoever he was staying with.

I felt so much pity for him and wanted to help. So far, he was the first person I felt different towards – I still can’t explain how it happened.

When he was done eating, I took him home, but he didn’t let me follow him to his doorstep, saying his aunt was going to kill him.

But, I made him promise me he was going to come visiting.

We chose a perfect place to meet – the garden I had first seen him.
I was scared he wouldn’t show up, but surprisingly, he did.

The happiness I had felt when I saw him at that moment, it had given me the conviction that I was a goner.

Although, I admit I had fallen for him a little too easily, but I felt it was because it was my first love.

He was so naive and didn’t even agree to sit close to me. Instead, he sat on the floor.

We talked for some time and I got to know he was living with his cruel aunt who told him his mother abandoned him.

I felt bad for him and told him to come with me, promising to take good care of him. But he refused, telling me he wanted to stay back with his aunt and await his mother’s return.

He had a feeling his mother would return for him someday and he wanted to get to meet her.

I tried convincing him, but he wouldn’t listen. So, I let him be, hoping to talk to his aunt and make her change.

I introduced him to BTS and they were really shocked about it, although they never detested it.

Jungkook supported me and advice me to for it.

We became friends for a long time and he became more free around me. He sang to me each time we were together. It occurred to me, but I was scared to confess my feelings to him. I was scared of heartbreak.

What if he says no to me?

He occupied my every thoughts, day and night and I felt I could hold it no longer.

One day, I told him about it – my feelings – and that was the most nervous day of my life.

I confessed my feelings to him and he ran away in fear. I was heartbroken, but he returned some days later and told me he wasn’t ready for it yet. He told me he was scared and needed some time.

But, I think he also loved me. Of course, he did.

Everything was going on fine and his feelings were becoming obvious.

But, Jungkook ruined the whole thing. Everything changed.

His mother was abducted by some strange people and they requested him to bring Park in exchange for him.

They threatened to kill his mum in the next 24 hours if he failed and he was frustrated and thought of falling for them.

I know he had his mother to protect, but he shouldn’t have taken my Park away.

I pleaded with him not to, but he didn’t listen. I cried and begged but he turned deaf ears to me.

He drugged me and went ahead to abduct Park and hand him over to them.

And since then, I didn’t get to see him again. He took my Park away. They probably killed him.

I was heartbroken – the same thing I’ve always been scared of happened to me and it tore my heart. It left me in pains. He was just a poor naive boy who wanted to survive. Who had so many plans.

He meant the world to me but Jungkook took him away and since then, it shattered me. I just wanted revenge.

I vowed never to let him stay happy again.

I don’t have the heart to kill him, but I just don’t want him to be happy; to fall in love.

I know I shouldn’t be doing this; but I can’t control it. This is why I’ve been scared of heartbreak. It turned me into a monster.

And now, I can’t help it.
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TBC.