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Part 46

After a week:
Eva's POV:

I was working and thinking about the way that chan has been acting these days.
He don't let me touch to his closet or arrange his clothes, he has been a little distant these days, I'm worried.
I called him many times he didn't answer, i just want to see if he feels better cuz he was sick these days.

It was 3pm, i got out of work and went to check on him on the studio.
The boys ran to me when they saw le, i missed them so much.

" you guys are feeling well! " i asked

" yeah! " they said

They look a little tired but apparently they'll have a little break in two days.
The other went to the rehearsal room and Felix was next to me

" is chan in the studio?! " i asked

" yeah! " he answered

" oh okey! " i said

I directly went to him, i bought his favorite donuts.
I knocked and entered the studio.

" hi bab- "

" what are you doing here! " he directly said without looking at me

" I bought your favorite do- "

" i hate them " he said

" but you- "

" I SAID I HATE THEM, GO HOME " he yelled when he got up

I jumped in fear, i was shaking, the box almost fell, my heart was beating so fast.

I closed the door of the studio and directly got out, i saw the boys getting out of the rehearsal room.

" eva! What's wrong?! " Han asked

I ignored everything and got out of the company.
I directly went home, i feel like I'm gonna pass out cuz i ran and i sometimes forgot that I'm asmathic.
I got home, i tried to catch my breath but i couldn't, i went slowly to my room and grabbed the pills and took them with water

I got up and I decided to make dinner, i decided to do A potato and cheese gratin, my mom used to make it.
I was holding my tears cuz my anger, my stress and my anxiety comes out with crying.
I was so damn angry and mad at him, if it was at home, It's okey but in the company... I'm never gonna put my feet out there.

I sat down... Calming myself down until I burst into tears, i couldn't hold it at all... I had a hard week, i thought the Weeknd would go easy on me but Chan said no.
I know he'd come home and pretend like nothing happened. He already did it twice this month and he always promise me that he'll never do it again and he does it again...

After few hours:

I was washing the dishes and i hear the door opening..

" baby I'm home " he said

I still have the echo of him yelling in my head.
He came closer to him and kissed my cheek, i didn't react at all, i didn't even want to look at him.
I didn't want to be the bad side of the story so i grabbed a plate and served him the food and all the necessaries.
I finished the dishes and i went to the room.
After few minutes, he came in and sat on the bed, i finished cleaning the room, i grabbed my laptop and got out of the room, i felt the room was cold.

I went to the couch and tried to calm down by looking at the view.
I had to do some work on my laptop.

I looked at the hour and it was 12pm, i closed my laptop and layed down on the couch, i didn't want to go sleep with him.

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The next morning

I opened my eyes, the sun was hitting my eyes, i realized that i slept on the couch, it was 9am, fortunately i work in the evening only.
I got up and took a shower, chan wasn't here, he left a note saying that he went to work and he prepared me breakfast, i think he knows what he did.

I went to the kitchen, i was feeling so tired, my back was hurting.
I sat down and ate the waffles chan made while watching a SKZ'S Docuserie in Lollapalooza, i remember it was extraordinary, it was amazing.

After few hours of working on my laptop, i baked some eggs and went to work.
I wore a very simple outfit, it look very nice and pretty.

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It was 5pm, i was walking out the school, the students gave me flower, they made me happy.
I opened the door suddenly i hear someone calling me.

" miss Eva! " Someone said then i turned around

" Yes Mr Hyu " i said

" i wanted to ask you if... Euuh sometime if you want to hang out and drink a coffee " Mr Hyu Said

" oh I'm sorry, I'm kinda busy these day, sorry... Have a nice weekend " i said politely

I turned around and got out of school, i saw a black car like Chan's, i knew it wasn't him since he's busy in the company.
I started walking on my way home suddenly the black car stopped next to me, i was furious cuz it been following me since i got out of work.
I turned and i was ready to fight that guy and I suddenly stopped... It's Chan

" Get in the car! " he said

I looked at him then i got in.

" you look pretty! " he said

I was looking out the window, i was watching the clouds, i heard it, i felt butterflies... I still feel them everytime i hear his voice, I'm still in love and I'm falling everyday.

The whole ride was silent, he knew that i needed some time to arrange my thoughts, he for sure realized that he fucked up.

i wanted to open the door but it's locked, i unlocked it and chan locked it again.
He got out and opened it for me.
I entered the door of the house, i directly went to take a shower, it made me feel good.

I went and layed down the couch to watch TV, i was feeling so tired.
Chan came with the box of donuts and sat next to me, i got distracted since he was shirtless, but i tried my best to focus on the Movie.
He kissed my forehead and my cheek and whispered " i love you " in my ear, i had goosebumps.

Is he testing my patience or what ?!

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I was washing the dishes, i felt someone behind me, i wish he won't hug me from behind because i know i will cry, cuz i feel so angey, anxious, tired and so negative.
I fortunately finished the dishes, and went to the bathroom and closed the door.
I did my skincare routine while holding my tears then went to sleep, but chan was already in Bed.
I had to sleep in our bed cuz i have to get a good sleep.
I entered the bed and turned my back to him.
After few minutes, he Wrapped his hands around my waist, i wanted to escape but i couldn't.

" you're not going anywhere " he said

" i don't want to stay here- at all " i said while struggling to escape

He grabbed my waist and pulls me closer him, then i turned around.

" hey stay with me!! i want to talk with you " he calmly said

" well I don't want to talk you at all, leave me alone!! " i said while crying

He looked sad when I bursted into tears, I couldn't hold them, I've been holding them for a week now.
I felt my heart racing.

" hey baby! I'm- " he said then stopped

" Chan please!! Leave me alone " i said

" I won't!! " he said

He suddenly hugged me and i cried all my tears..
I felt chan caressing my back and my hair to calm me down.

" Baby!! I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I- " he said

" i don't want to talk about this " i said

He was caressing my back slowly, i feel better now since i cried all the tears out.

Chan lifted my chin up and wipped those last tears and kissed my lips, i perfectly felt his lips colliding with mine, his taste will never change, he's still delicious.

" i love you darling, I'm sorry for everything i did " he said

I turned around, i wasn't ready to talk about this at all.
I closed my eyes and fell asleep

To be continued....