THE WAY

✦TWO✦

✦Xavier White✦

"lil mama the baddest thing around and she already know it." i rap along with Plies and T-pain's song Shawty as i clean my home.

i nod my head to the beat and sing my heart out with T-pain and his ear shattering auto tune.

i now finished cleaning. the dishes being the last i had to do because i hated doing them.

i hated doing them so much i've had to stop myself from buying only plastic silverware and plates.

hearing my dog, bailey start barking i know someone's at the door and it's most likely my homeboys.

i let out a dramatic sigh opening the door because i know their reasoning for being here.

"nigga why didn't you let me shoot that bitch?" leo scrunches up his face when i open my door.

i cringe hearing him call my ex girlfriend of 3 years a bitch. though cheating on me with multiple niggas is hella weird, we all hate when niggas call other women bitches.

but clearly in these situations emotions get the best of us.

i give his trigger happy ass a blank look and open the door wider to let him and the rest of the crew in.

"deja cheating really the last thing i expected from her. after all this time too?" elijah says sitting on the couch.

"i know right! and her stank ass wanted him first." amare shakes his head looking at his new acrylic nails.

malaki, my brother who also is amare's boyfriend grabs his hands and scoots closer to amare and says "she better be glad xavier keeping her ass from getting jumped."

i grab my last hair tie from my wrist, put my locs up and pick up bailey and start rubbing her.

she's been real clingy lately. i feel like she knows about the breakup between me and deja. bailey never liked her, maybe i should've took that as a sign.

i walk back in the living room hearing them talk shit about deja and rub my hand down my face. i just wanted to stop hearing her name.

"can we just stop talking about it? please?" i mumble taking a seat next to leo who still looks irritated about the whole situation.

i get it though. catching your best friend's girlfriend fucking another nigga in the skate station bathroom is crazy.

this was 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks since i broke up with deja. 2 weeks since i found out she had been fucking with multiple niggas. 2 weeks of deja spamming my phone from various instagram accounts and text now numbers.

2 weeks of learning how to cope with being single. i've been single before and i can do it again.

i've been cheated on before. that time i didn't take it well and went into a deep depression.

but thanks to my mom and therapy i've learned and realized that it's not my fault people are shitty and do you wrong. as long as i did my part im cool with any outcome.

I wasn't always like this though. i used to be a hot head. always blaming myself for other people actions.

but i know i treated deja like a queen. i know i was a great boyfriend and this situation won't stop me from being that to my future girlfriend.