don't forget me.

Mediocrity.

Mediocrity.

I'm not really an inherently good person.

Not one of those exceptionally well, bright young individuals who have the ability to make the world smile.

I hardly can make myself smile.

But I'm also not a shitty individual.

Because I know what it feels like to be in the presence of one of those. 

I'm somewhere between the two.
Doing great things, and also making shitty decisions...

But that doesn't mean I can accept mediocrity.

Maybe I can accept that we live in a world where bad things happen to good people, and bad people are happy with themselves.

Where people who are supposed to love me seemingly don't give a fuck about my mental health.

Where you can tell me that you miss me and somehow I still gotta sit with myself.

And everyone in my life is a constant, either really good or really shitty, so there's no wavering.

And I self isolate because the love that I put out, you won't reciprocate.

Instead I just feel the weight

And maybe I'm not good enough for you to date...

I just have to live with that pain and it drives me insane that someone I care about as much as you can act so lame.

And somehow I got these weird ass feelings that I can't tame but it's cool cause you got your two minutes of fame.

You've given me nothing but mediocrity

And I'm the only person that I can blame.