⚠️TW this has self harming and other triggering things so if you get triggered easy pls don't read this chapter⚠️.
You never told sodo but you struggled with depression & sh,here lately you couldn't stand how you looked and decided to workout more and not eat at all and at first it was very hard bc you would eat a lot but then it started to get easier you would eat and feel like you had to throw up or you felt guilty and felt like you were just gonna gain weight again so you completely stopped eating. Sodo noticed something was off you were in you're room a lot more not talking to anyone and we're always in sweats and a hoodie and he didn't not once see you eat he began to become concerned and just wanted to talk to you to make sure you were ok.
He came to you're room and knocked on the door "hey y/n can we talk he said nervously but he got no response so he just came in,he seen you weren't in bed so he opened the door to you're bathroom and found you on the floor,bleed very bad from how deep you cvt you're self". You really didn't mean to it kinda just happened and you were barely awake almost passed out luckily he found you in time he called you an ambulance and then proceeded to wrap a towel around you're wrist and he was crying because he wasn't to sure on what to do and why you would do this he felt like somehow it was his fault for not noticing sooner or being there for you,sodo never cried so him crying over this meant he really cared for you and was scared for you're well being.
Time skip- at hospital
You started waking up and you see Sodo holding you're hand and his head on you're legs as he was sitting next to you asleep,you had no idea what happened till you seen you're wrist you began to cry and sodo woke up and he instantly comforted you saying that it's okay and that he understands and he just wants to help you and that he really cares about you and he's sorry that he didn't notice sooner,and you cried even harder because you feel horrible that he thinks it's his fault,"what's wrong baby he said confused and upset because you were crying". I'm so so sorry sodo I should have told you I was just scared that you wouldn't want to be with me anymore but I struggle with depression really bad and I don't even know what starts it sometimes and sh,and I've been hating how I look so I stopped eating and working out more and I guess that's how the depression started I'm so sorry you didn't do anything at all you sobbing leaning into him.
"Oh my it's okay y/n I'm so sorry I had no idea and I love you so much I would never stop loving you because of that I care abt you too much to do that,and you're perfect just the way you are you don't need to be st@rving you're self it's gonna make it worse hun but I understand I went through that too but it's not gonna help baby sodo said as his eys began to fill with tears as he rubbed you're head". I'm just so sorry I know I probably scared you because you walked in on me like that I'm so so so sorry sodo you said,"it's okay you did a bit but I've got you I'd never let anything happen to you I got there just in time and you're still here with me so I'm okay but I really want to get you some help because I can't lose you you're everything to me baby he said crying,but it's totally you're decision".
I think I need to go somewhere for a bit I don't wanna hurt you anymore and hurt myself I don't wanna do this to you so I'll get help it's the best thing you said. "And sodo just leaned his head onto you happy that you agreed because he didn't wanna lose you ever.
Sorry if this is triggering I just thought I'd write it and something I'm kinda going through not all just some.
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