We are okay.

A Changing Heart

From Laura's Journal
______January 8th_____

You make me absolutely crazy.

Who do you think you are anyways?

Calling me, at two in the morning

Claiming that you miss me.

I don't miss this new you,

Because you've changed.

I changed.

Everyone has changed,

And yet you have the audacity to renter into my life like it isn't a big deal.

You promised me...

You promised that it'd be like you didn't exist. You told me, that in time I'd get over you.

But how much fucking time?

It's been two years.

And it's been six years since you last said you love me.

HOW MUCH FUCKING TIME?

HOW MUCH TIME UNTIL I AM ABLE TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE?

HOW MUCH TIME DOES IT TAKE FOR THIS PAIN TO GO AWAY?

HOW MUCH FUCKING TIME DOES IT TAKE UNTIL I CAN'T REMEMBER THE FEELING OF YOUR HANDS

OR THE WAY YOU SMELL.

HOW MUCH TIME UNTIL I AM ABLE TO FORGET YOU?

I want to love myself again.

Please, I'm begging. I want to hate you so much.

I do hate you though...

I hate you because I love you...
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The next time you feel like calling me,

Please, just don't.

(L.M.M.)
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They dated for four years, and they've been apart for two.