Ash wanted to meet me at the park. She said it was important, we met at our usual spot, the benches underneath the tree.
She looks at me ' I went to the doctors '
I start to panic, what if there's something seriously wrong?
' They put me on antidepressants, they say i have a chemical imbalance in my brain, they also said I have to stop throwing up or else the pills won't work. So I've decided to be like you, I want to be anorexic '
It hit me like a tonne of bricks.
She wants to be anorexic?
Who would want to be anorexic? Who would want their hair to fall out and their periods to stop and their skin to become dry and flakey if they don't moisturize twice a day? Who could possibly want that?
A lump began to form in my throat.
I tried to think of something happy, all that came up was Ricky. So I blerted it out, talk about verbal diarrhea.
' I need to tell you something too, I'm in love '
' You're in love? Really? '
' yeah ' I look at the floor, she pulls my chin up and looks me in the eyes and begins to lean in. I pull away.
' I'm in love with Ricky ' I exclaim.
Speak of the devil and he shall appear
Ricky jumps over the bench and sits in between me and Ash.
' Talking about me were we? ' he says cheakily.
Ashley storms off without saying a word. I knew she was hurt, I should've chased after her but I didn't. Ricky places his hand on the back of my head and pulls me in for a kiss, we kiss passionatly, ' I love you ' he whispers. ' I love you too ' I whisper back.
But did I?
