Chasing You..

Ch- 29 Worth It!

Jungkook's pov

I laid there with my mouth open in shock while he just stared at me with big wide eyes, looking like he wasn't sure what to say or how to respond.

I gulped. What the hell was that? Did I really just say those words? Why the hell did I say that? Why, Kook, Why?

I'd just said the three words that I had never said to a person in my life.

I'd just told him that I loved him.

What. The. Fuck?

Seriously, how do I make this right? Quickly, Kook, think of something. Take it back. Rewind. Rewind! Shit!

"I... I... sorry... I..." Fuck me, stuttering is NOT helping!

He pulled back slightly and sat next to me on the bed, clutching the sheet and pulling it to cover his chest. He looked like he was terrified, like he was literally scared motionless.

Oh God, help me!

"Tae, I-I haven't been with anyone for a long time and that was just...I was... er..." Where the hell was I going with all this stuttering? I groaned and closed my eyes, wishing that a big bolt of lightning would strike me dead. "It just came out. I haven't been with a companion for a long time now and it just came out?" I offered, hoping that would explain why, at the point of my climax, with my dick half way down his throat, I'd just told him that I loved him.

"Umm." He winced, looking just as uncomfortable as I felt.

I gritted my teeth. I didn't want my time with him to end. There was me worrying that my crazy ass of a mother would scare him away from me, and I manage to do it with three little words. I wanted to pat myself on the back in congratulations.

I sat up and blew out a big breath, looking at him worriedly. I didn't mean the words when I said them, did I? It was just a spur of the moment thing, wasn't it? Not that I'd ever said I love you to a person when I climaxed, but that had to be what it was, didn't it? It was a mistake, nothing more. I replayed the words over and over in my head. 'I love you, Taehyung,' seemed to be on repeat, taunting me, frightening the life out of me.

"Sorry, I just-" I started, desperately scrambling for something to make this better. "I didn't mean it," I finished, shaking my head fiercely. As I said the words, I noticed how wrong those four words felt coming out of my mouth, compared to how right the three I'd said a minute earlier did.

Was I in love with him?

"You didn't?" he asked, swallowing loudly, looking both relieved and worried at the same time.

"No, sorry, it just came out. I was just..." I trailed off, not knowing how to finish that sentence.

"Grateful?" he offered, looking at me curiously.

I smiled and nodded. "Yeah, I was just very, very grateful. Nothing else, that just slipped out. Sorry, Stripes," I agreed.

His eyes were searching my face; he chewed on his lip and seemed to hold his breath. "I really like you, Kook," he whispered.

I smiled weakly. "Well, that's not quite the declaration that I just made, but I'll take it," I teased, trying to lighten this intense atmosphere I'd brought down on us.

He laughed and slapped my shoulder lightly. "Shut up," he joked, rolling his eyes. I grinned and wrapped my arms around him, lying back down and bringing him with me, holding him tightly to my chest. I could feel my heart crashing in my chest, my panic was slowly fading. He pulled his head back and looked at me nervously. "You're a really nice guy, Kook, but," He stopped and winced.