Be My Star

Lost My Star (II)

"What? What do you mean?" I say, almost choking on my own words.

"I'm sorry Ha Joon, your brother is gone. He killed himself." The principal said, breaking eye contact and staring down at his cold, marble desk.

A million thoughts were racing through my head, swerving to avoid crashing into another.

When? How? Why? I had so many questions, but I didn't have to heart to ask. I noticed the principal reach for the school phone, dialing what I could only assume was my parent's number, to inform them of the accident.

Everything felt surreal. It was all a blur, as I stood there in my high school principal's office, finding out my brother was dead. I had seen him just an hour before...

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"Joon!" I hear a voice yell from behind me. I quickly turn around to see my brother, Yeon running towards me with a bright smile on his face.

"I put the note in his locker, I have to hurry to the roof. I'm so nervous, do you think he'll say yes?" Yeon says with excitement.

I glance at my phone looking at the time, before I turn to look back up at Yeon. "I know he will."

"Now hurry upstairs, I'll text him and tell him I saw someone put something in his locker," I say with a proud smile painted across my face. Yeon nods before swiftly going up the school steps and heading to the rooftop.

I never would have thought that I would become a wingman for my brother. Especially for our best friend. Yeon has had a crush on my best friend since we were in middle school, yet here we are now just a few years later, and Yeon is going to ask him to be his boyfriend.

As I walked down the hallway to Yeon's soon-to-be boyfriend's locker, I couldn't help but feel somewhat hurt by this situation. I mean, Woo hasn't talked to me in years after he left the band, but he stayed in touch with my brother?

I text Woo, telling him that I saw someone slip something into his locker and that he should probably come to check it out. I lean back against his rusty, hard locker reminiscing about when Yeon, Woo, and I would practice in our garage for hours on end. It felt like yesterday when Woo left us to join another band after we won second place in the middle school talent show.

Still, I don't hate Woo. After all, we've been best friends since elementary, and he now seems to be treating my brother right. The only thing I do hate is his new group of friends, they're the biggest jerks in the school. I hope they haven't changed Woo.

I snap out of my deep thought to the sound of brisk footsteps that could be heard echoing through the hallway, getting louder with each step. I open my eyes, and they immediately land on the source. Woo-hyun.

"What took you so long?"

"Sorry, I had to convince the teacher to let me leave. She really did not want me to go to the bathroom." Woo-hyun notes, using his hands to make quotation marks on mentioning the word bathroom.

I step aside, making room for him to open the locker. He does so, before pulling a note out of his locker. He furrowed his brows in confusion, glancing up at me, then back to the paper.

"Well? What does it say?" I ask.

He opens the note slowly, and gently. I notice his coffee colored eyes go back and forth as he studies the page. His expression lights up and his mouth curves into a smile. I never noticed how adorable he was.

"I have to go, I'll tell you later." Woo-hyun states before happily skipping off in the direction of the rooftop.

"Pfft, what an idiot." I joke, as I turn around and head to my class.

I was late, just to become a third wheel between my brother and my best friend,- well friend. But I know how much this means to Yeon, so I'll let it slide this one time. I pull out my phone before opening the classroom door, and text Yeon :


You owe me! ¬_¬




Little did I know, that text would be left on sent for the rest of my life, and everything would change forever, from that day on.

Sometimes I think back and wonder, would Yeon still be alive if I never told Woo-hyun about the note in his locker? Who would've thought that my "best friend" would become the reason my brother killed himself? There wasn't much we could do about it, as there was no evidence of Woo-hyun being the cause of my brother's death. But my parents ended up sueing the school, and I transfered to finish the last few months of school to graduate.

The day my brother died. I lost everything. I lost my younger brother, I lost the person who would comfort me the most, I lost the person who was always by my side, I lost the person who would stay up late at night with me to tell me about his crush, I lost my best friend, and I lost my star.

I had so much anger and hate inside of me. Woo-hyun never deserved Yeon. Woo-hyun could only be described as a horrible and twisted person. Was he just hiding it all this time?

After my brother died, I lost my love and passion for music. I felt destroyed, like a part of me was ripped away.

Like a star that burnt out, and lost its light.