Lost in combat

Part 2

Im not sure how i feel about this story..

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"oh god" i heard, i was still laying on the cold hard concrete of the basement not having the energy to walk up the 3 flights to my room, 

"mila"

"mila please wake up" the voice was broken. i realized it was jules after cracking my eyes open, not enough for the light to come in but enough to register my sister standing there.

 "julie, go to your room."

 "NO" she whisper shouted, not too loud but stern, i whinced, 

"i know your plan mills, they said to go to the base tomorrow at 5. ill drive you," 

"i cant let you do that, dad and marley will have your head and i-" i was cut off by jules saying 

"they left for a few days they wont be back"

 "oh" did i make them leave? the kids shoudnt be left alone... is it my fault? i was quickly pulled out of my thoughts as i was picked up swiftly, youd think since all i do is work out id have meat on my bones but in reality im the skinniest thing, but i have alot of strength, my heaviest lift was 350 pounds,  i think i fell asleep on the walk, next thing i knew i was having my shirt taken off, I quickly pushed my sister away at the fear of her seeing me, she loves our parents she shouldnt even be taking care of me. i kicked her out of the room, not before telling her how much i love her and are thankfull for her, i quickly hopped into the shower,washing my body and hair as quickly as possible not knowing the next time ill have a warm shower, Im running away, to the army, but im still running away. i gave them a fake name and everything. i pulled myself out of the shower and onto the cool blue tiles that remind me of the ocean. i immedietly started packing my chlothes as soon as i stepped into my room, i have my green army bag(scroll down to the bottom to see) that i got sent in the mail, apparently its all im allowed to bring, i picked out 4 hoodies, 6 plain shirts,5 sports bras, 2 cargo pants, 4 belts, 3 pairs of pj shorts, 1 zip up jacket, 6 pairs of green slick socks, and of course my combat boots, the letter said theyll give me my uniform at the base, but they also sent me a uniform to wear to the base.(scroll down to the end to see) of course i put in an extra phone charger, as well as headphones, i also decided to put my journal and of course my favorite stuffy, hes a classic bear that my mom got me when i was a baby, his name is duffy.  after i put my things in neatly i put out my uniform and extra boots. i decided to write a letter to sophie,jules, and the littles,

jules letter:

Dear julie, you mean the world to me i couldnt imagine my life without you in it, remember the day dad took us from moms and you would not let me go? i loved it. we used to be so close, not anymore but ill always love you and ill never forget you as long as you promise not to forget me, i know this will be tough but believe me this is the best for all of us not just me,take care of the littles ones, you and them deserve the world, im sorry im abandoning you, please dont try to look for me, im changing my name and leaving for good. i dont want to be found,

love, mills

sophies letter:

dear soph, im so sorry to leave you,you are doing great things and ill be watching this from afar, ill make this short and sweet, i love you so much and im sorry it has ended this way.you deserve the whole world, please dont look for me i dont want to be found.

love, mila

silvers letter:

dear silver, i know you are still so little but i love you so much and your mommy and daddy love you so much, love your big sissy mila.