Strings of Our Love

Chapter 6

Nandini's pov

I watch him leaving the room and all the emotions I had been holding in just trust out as I cry, I cry holding onto the pillow. I couldn't breath for a second, thats how hard I was crying and I am happy that our room is sound proof because if it wasn't fab 5 would hear me sobbing

I can't tell him anything yet, I can't tell him what happened, I can't say anything, but one things for sure and that is that I don't hate him. I could never hate him, he is the only person on this planet, in this world that I have been in love with. Not a single ounce of me is anyone else, it's been him and it will aways be him

"Manik' I whisper sobbing

I want to hug him and I want to be in his arms but I can't, I don't know if she is still around

I hear the door and instantly I wipe my eyes really quick pretending to sleep

"Choti this drama might work with Manik because he isn't thinking rationally right now but you can't fool me, sit up" Cabir says coming in

For a minute I don't move hoping he'd leave

"Choti get up" he murmurs with his hand on my head

I tried but I couldn't hold it in anymore I wrap my arm around him crying

"Shh shh it's Okay, I know something is wrong. Please just tell me what's going on?"

"I can't" I whisper

"Yes you can, come on. Sit up nandini" he says helping me sit up

He wipes my tears and kisses my head gently

"What happened?" He asks

"Bhai" I whisper

"Tu aur mai dono jantai hai kuch hua hai, you would't just leave like that nandini"

"I can't bhai, I can't tell you"

"That's okay, you don't have to but why are you not talking to him. Whats wrong?" he asks

"I can't, he he doesn't deserve someone like me" I tell him

"Nandini can I be really honest? And you know that I am always on your side"

I nod wiping my tears

Even though I was back in our room, I was back where I have shared my most beautiful moments with Manik, it just all feels bland knowing I lost our little baby.

"He was angry, he really was but the second he got that call the anger was done and over with. The second he saw you, he didn't remember his anger because you left him. There was a softness on his face nandini and he hasn't done anything the past month other than sit here by you. I am not saying you have to talk to him but he deserves to know. I think you both deserve to figure this out again"

"I want to but I'm scared Cabir and if I tell him why im scared or why I left, he will try taking care of it"

"understood, so don't tell him that but the loss you both shared is huge Nandini. You both a hurting so much and though it doesn't make it less painful but having each other can help to heal"

"How do I look him in the eyes and tell him I lost our baby and not just that, how do I tell him that I didn't leave because of whatever bullshit reason I had made up?"

"he knows choti, he knows you would never just leave like that"

"He is angry" I mumble

"He is hurt" he whispers back

I nod trying not to cry

It is so hard to sleep, to move, to even breath sometimes but it gets easier when I see him laying on the couch in front of me because my heart knows I am safe now.