Taste Me Devil (JeBen)

9- Prove?

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Bib's POV _

Time passes I'm getting attached to him. I don't know why..

But there's something in him that I'm yet to explore. He's sometimes so mysterious.

I don't know what to do or how.

After a few weeks we got a event management offer. A wedding around beach side.

We went to observe the location first. My crew will follow later on.

Things are good but his closeness leave me at unease. I don't know how to react. I don't want to be in a uncomfortable situation.

Am I ready to confess? Should I?

What am I thinking?!

"Hey.. here's your lemonade.. refresh yourself."

"Thanks."

I can feel my heart's racing.

I really fell for this man!

I don't how long I've been staring at him.

"Want a kiss?" He smirks.

"Huh?!"

"You're staring at me with these doe eyes again."

"Shut it.."

Embarrassing!! What's wrong with me?!

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I'm still sitting at the beach enjoying the cold breeze. The sky is filled with stars.

Suddenly he comes from behind.

"What are you thinking?" He broke the silence after quite a moment.

"... It's just.. about someone.." I replied without looking at him.

"Oh.. a love matter I guess."

"I think so..."

He stayed silent.

"Well.. I love someone.. I want to confess.. what do you think? How should I do it?"

"If that's the case then.. I'm afraid I can't help you.."

"Why?"

"Because... I don't believe in love.. it's bullshit!"

"May I ask what made you think that way?"

"Hehe.. love.. is just a mere word.. that's it."

"But for me.. it's not.. love is more than a mere word.. it means commitment to the person you wholeheartedly care for. It's a promise. It can't be false."

"Phew!.. then you haven't experience the concept yet. No one can love without any expectations. Human beings are selfish.. way too much that they don't care to play with someone's emotion.. every commitment, every word is nothing but lie. When they're done they just simply throw off.. all are same."

I can see the hatred in his eyes. There's also a hint of sadness.

"Is these words are spoken from someone who doesn't believe in love or who does know love but experience something awful?" I can't help but ask. I eagerly want to know what happened with him.

He gave a death glare. I can tell he's not in a good mood.

But I really don't want to see him like this. He should know I love him. And I'm not a cheater. I'm being true to him as well as to myself.

"Jeff, wait!" I grabbed his hand when he stood up to leave.

"What?" He turns.

"What if I say... You're the person I want to confess?"

"What do you mean?"

"Hugh.. Jeff.. I.. I love you.. I really do.. ever since we met and things that happened.. I don't know how I fell for you. I can't help thinking about you.. I want you by my side." I blubber out quickly.

"Haha.. you're fooling around huh?.. let go!" He forcefully withdraw his hand.

I walked behind to catch him.

"Jeff!! Wait!!.. oh come on!! Can you please talk out? " I grabbed his jacket.

"Go back.. Bib.. I don't have time for this kinda nonsense!"

"Nonsense! My love seems nonsense to you?! I'm not fooling around! I'm being honest with you. I don't care if you love me yet or not but I want you to believe my words. I want you to know that I.. love you." I'm getting angry right now.

"Love... You love me you said. Fine. Then prove it. How far you can go for love, huh? Do you love without any expectation?"

"Of course.. I do. I can do anything. How can I prove it to you?"

"Oh really? Then... Can you.. die for me? Right now? Go and jump into the sea. Show me that you love me. Maybe then I will believe your words." He smirks.

I'm puzzled for a while. Is that how he want me to prove?

"What's wrong, Bib? You can't die for me? But I heard you can do anything for your love.. hump!.. love is nothing but lie. Back off!" He turned.

I'm not lying. I can do anything means I can.  He wants me to prove it then I will even if it costs my life!!!

I run into the sea. The waves are breaking over my body. I walked. The water is touching my chin.

I closed my eyes then dipped myself.

I know it's madness. I never wanted to die like this. I wanted a beautiful life with my love to live. But I don't have any choice. He left me no choice.

My lungs started feeling the pressure. I want to breath but I can't.

My head is dizzy. My body is falling numb.

So this is how it feels when someone is dying. It's strangely painful. I can feel it on my heart as well in my body.

Yet I like it. At least I'm doing it for him.

My eyes are giving up.

I'm drifting away from this damn world.

It's good. It's... Good!"

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