Desire

chapter 16: choice

I didn't sleep well last night. The thoughts of ryle keep haunting even in my dreams.

I kept waking up multiple times.

And the weather didn't help last night, I could still see some drops of water racing down my window.

Lightning and thunder raged with furry last night.

I'm still tired, I want to sleep more, but I need to get up and go attend my classes.

Heading to my desk to get my phone and see the time, I notice it's still early, it's 7am and I have classes at 9am.

Looking around the room that in still not familiar with even after I tried to decorate it to make it look a comfortable as possible.

It still looks strange to me.

Forget about it, I say to myself.

I walk to the kitchen, still not familiar with walls that surround me, I can't imagine Isaac like I used to do everytime I used to walk around my old house.

I pass by Ethan's room since it's in the way to the kitchen.

I notice the door is wide open, by curiosity I glance to see the bedroom.

What....?

Is that... a girl on his bed..?

I can't fully see who it is since it's dark and they're covered head to toe with a blanket I can only see her long hair.

Ethan never brought a girl home, I don't even see him talk to any girl at school so this a shock to me.

Before taking my way to the kitchen, I close the door to let them have their privacy.

Nonetheless, I will interrogate Ethan about the girl later, he won't escape from me.

At least there's some exciting things happening that'll make me forget about everything.

~time skip~after classes~

"We'll talk more later I have a meeting with the club members" ava says as she gives me a hug "if anything happens give me a call ok?"

"Yeah don't worry about me, have fun"

Breaking the hug I smile at her one last smile before we walk away from each other.

These days I feel more lonely then I used to.

I'm not surrounded by people anymore.

And I hate this feeling of loneliness, habitually I love being alone, it gives me a peace of mind.

I would do the things I loved and enjoyed, it used to be the most peaceful days.

Now everytime I'm alone, the darkness succumbs.

I feel like I'm making a big deal out of it.

Like I'm a girl who wants to seek attention because I can't get over something that happened.

I have being alone with myself.

Nothing to do only think.

A notification from my phone got me to get back to reality.

As I thought.

It's Isaac.

  -if you want us to reconcile meet me at my house, and if u don't.... I'll understand, I'm waiting for you..

Am I capable of having a conversation with him?

I WANT to meet him, I WANT to hug him, I WANT to be by his side,...

I want him...

But he scares me.

This love scares me.

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