Ghost

{7}

I wanna say thank you for making me feel like I'm the prettiest girl in the world
No matter what I got on, he says I'm beautiful, it's a fact that keeps me so in love
And I wanna thank him, I feel like I'm the prettiest girl in the world
May disagree, but it really don't matter to me,
Say what you want
Because to him I'm the prettiest girl in the world

{prettiest girl by Tamar Braxton}

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Angel POV

I was in the bath tub thinking, smoking, listening to music. I got a lot on my mind. Just about everything ive been through, and am I ready to tell Ghost about my pass and will he understand what I went through. I went on the little date with him and He's not a bad guy.

Flashback at the beach

Ghost: so why do you hate me so much

I chuckle and lay back on the sand, looking at his face in the moon light.

Angel: tbh I heard stories about you how you where this worst person and how you liked to get dome all the time and if the girl wouldnt give it up, you would take it and I didnt like the though of that.

Ghost: why you just didnt ask

He said while laying back.

Angel: easier to hate then question

Ghost: not when your judging a good guy

He said turning to face me

Angel: sorry*mumble*

Ghost: so are you going to tell me about your pass and why you got to upset at the beach that day

Angel:when Im ready, Ill tell you all bout it. Deal *I said holding out my hand wanting him to shake it*

Ghost: deal *he said shaking my hand*...you know you really are gorgeous

I smile, I really never had a guy tell me that. Only time a guy said I was pretty was when they wanted to get in my pants. I hadnt noticed a tear slipped down my cheek.

Ghost: whats wrong babygirl *pulling me in his arms*

Angel: never really had a guy tell me I was gorgeous

Ghost: well get used to it *he said kissing my forehead*

Flashback over

See I dont know how to handle my emotions. I dont know how to love some one. When I go on Tv and see someone in love, they always end up getting hurt, either by cheating or their lover dieing and I cant handle that. Giving a person my all then watch them leave. I already have to deal with this drug stuff then I have to take care and love and cater to someone and watch them leave in the end. I dont want to got through that. I dont want to know what it feels like to be hurt. If that is what love is , I dont think I want to know how love feels and thats how I feel. I haven't talked to Darius since...sorry Darius is Ghost's really name. Ive been in this tub for a good 3 hours. Refilling the water when it get cold, smoking to take my mind off the pain and getting away from all the emotions running inside of me that I couldnt handle. I just wanted to escape my present and go to the future.

Ebony: Angel, you got to come out of there some time, you cant run from your feelings for Ghost

I had forgiven Ebony and Honey, I mean I was forced to by Darius. They said sorry for what they did and I sadly forgiven them. I mean blood is thicker then water and I guess it's better for me to forget and forgive. I just dont know what happened to me. Ive chanced, If you knew me 2 months ago, you would have saw that I was a heartless son of a bitch who didnt give a fuck about nobody but her and her girls.

[Woman on phone]
"Hello
Yeah I just walked in
Yeah I'm good you still working?
Tonight, right now?
'Did I go out?' yeah, I went out
I went, I went to a couple of clubs
I never went to bed
Shit... wine or water
Did you say something about a cold drink?
I don't know, I'm delirious... night"

[Drake - Verse 1]
Cups of the Rosé
Bitches in my old phone
I should call one and go home
I've been in this club too long
The woman that I would try
Is happy with a good guy

But I've been drinking so much
That I'ma call her anyway and say
"Fuck that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had"
I say, "fuck that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he's not around"

(Are you drunk right now?)

I'm just sayin' you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately?
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin' only if you make me

Uh, cups of the XO
All my people been here
I see all of her friends here
Guess she don't have the time to kick it no more
Flights in the morning
What you doing that's so important?
I've been drinking so much
That I'ma call you anyway and say

"Fuck that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had"
I say, "fuck that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he's not around"
(Are you drunk right now?)

I'm just sayin', you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin' only if you make me

I think I'm addicted to naked pictures
And sitting talkin' 'bout bitches that we almost had
I don't think I'm conscious of making monsters
Outta the women I sponsor til it all goes bad
But shit it's all good
We threw a party, yeah we threw a party
Bitches came over, yeah, we threw a party
I was just calling cause they were just leaving
Talk to me please, don't have much to believe in
I need you right now, are you down to listen to me?
Too many drinks have been given to me
I got some women that's living off me
Paid for their flights and hotels I'm ashamed
Bet that you know them, I won't say no names
After a while girl they all seem the same
I've had sex four times this week, I'll explain
Having a hard time adjusting to fame
Sprite in that mixture, I've been talking crazy girl
I'm lucky that you picked up
Lucky that you stayed on
I need someone to put this weight on

[Drake and Woman on phone]
"Well I'm sorry" - [Drake]
"Are you drunk right now?" - [Woman]

I'm just sayin' you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin' only if you make me

[Drake on phone]
"You're not going to come?"
"Guess I'm bout to just kick it here then..."

Just throw up while I hold your hair back
Her white friend said "you niggas crazy"
I hope no-one heard that
I hope no-one heard that
Cause if they did, we gon be in some trouble
If they did, we gon be in some trouble, trouble, oh, oh, oh.

{marvin's room by Drake}

Bang. Bang

Honey: Angel Ghost has been shot, Open the door!

My whole world stopped. I got gotta the tub so fast. and grabbed some shorts and a t-shirt, fuck the shoes. I grabbed my keys and headed to the hospital. I went to the from desk.

Angel: Can I get the room to Darius...shit whats his last name...Fuck!

Gun: Angel!

I ran over to them and hugged them as tears rolled down my face,

Angel: what happened?

Money: well...

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What happened????????