The masterbation addiction

Part one

My name is Hamish I am 12 years old boy ......
                                                         I am  very scared right now, because a thought is bothering me a lot.
And  the thought is that I can't give birth to a new life.

'Yes, fear of not becoming a father.'

Yes, you heard it right.

This fear of future is killing me inside right now and I don't think it will go any time soon.

As time flies, I am getting more and more worried....

But, but there is always a person in everyone's life that make them happier, make their life easier and better.

And that person who has been solving all of my problems since my childhood is none other than  "my mommy."

So I am going to tell my mommy that,  "her son can't become dad because her son's penis has died."

Actually when I woke up in the morning my penis was erect.

Since, I was alone my room, I touched my penis out of curiosity for new things and it gave me pleasant sensation.

So, I kept rubbing it repeatedly and jt constantly gave more and more pleasant sensation and suddenly a milky white coloured fluid came out from my urethra.

And at that moment, I was absolutely frightened.

Cause  it was not urine, I thought it must be another form of blood, becuase since childhood I've always seen urine coming out of it.

And nowehere it was close to urine.

I was so nervous and tried to erect my penis with all my effort.

Damn, I failed after all experiments i did with it.

Now, I am sure that my penis is no more......

I locked my room and rushed towards my mommy's office.....

In the way my attention was withdrawn again and again to the zip of men's pant, thinking that they are capable of giving birth to a baby and there penis can get erect ....

So basically, I need to erect my penis and my problem will be solved ..

After getting this conclusion, when I reached office, straightly I went to washroom and started giving stimulation to my penis but my brain was not co-operating with me like it is a sin ....

Even after putting a lot of effort, I couldn't get erection

This made me feel like, I won't be able to get erection throughout my whole life.....
I came out from washroom and went to my mother with a frightened face.

She was busy with her client, and I was ashamed of myself.

After seeing her face, I lost my courage to share it with her .....

Now I have last option "GOD," who is also always a first choice, so I made a promise with him, that I  won't do this sin ever again in return give me my erection back....

Little did I know what was going to happen after..