Why do you want that??

I dont get it!

I don't get why do you want to be popular,  famous want to be rich well, I kind of get the rich part but why would you want all the attention? It's put too much  pressure having someone or multiple people watching you all the time. Listening to everything that you say, judging on everything you do to see what type of person you are. Not depending on your friends or personality know what do you want to do if you make a bad decision, it goes viral.
Everyone knows about it, you regret it time to time, but in the end, you just learn to deal with it. It's a pretty deep hole that you've dug yourself if you really want to do this and you've got there already. A lot of pressure. A lot of expectations to meet. Time is needed. Time is money. Something that everyone hates, but loves that sometimes. Mostly something that's going against you and will never come your way when you need it the most. Like an ex best friend. Or someone that you thought loved you, but they never did. Something that will always pull you down.

This is what I'm trying to get out of my famous life . Let me introduce myself. I'm Lily may Rose Hinton, and my life is meant to be sweeter perfect. You have so many expectations to meet. I have to go by my family rules and not destroy their reputation and if I do anything wrong, I'm done for my parents get mad over nothing and it's so annoying. In my world and my reality. Nothing is perfect. Everything goes wrong, and my life is just about to take a turn for the worst. In everyone else's eyes anyway.

So it started off with a peaceful day. I was just chilling I was led in bed could have that it was a weekend . Of course, my mother destroyed, that's amazing feeling. She stormed all mad, all angry. I don't know what's happened to her. Is there been an argument or something have I been blamed for the breaking of her favourite vase once again? Or have I somehow destroyed the family reputation? How do I change my look too much that my mother doesn't like it? Have I ate too much? Gained too much weight? Am I to in perfect for her little perfect family that is going to have the best life of all is a famous fucking superstar! Probably that one to be honest, I'm the least talented in my whole household. There's a few of us. There is my younger sister, Savannah. There is my youngest, brother Lucas and his twin brother Charlie. My older sister, Louisa, my older, brother, Ethan, and the oldest of them on the oldest sibling. Nathan Nathan is amazing. He's probably the best sibling ever.
He's obviously my favourite sibling, he doesn't pick favourite with everyone else because I'm his favourite. I'm only 15 and he's about 25 my mum so that I can move in with him when I'm 16. Can't wait for that. So going to move out soon. It's my birthday in a few days anyway.
It's going to be a glamorous day cause that's when I'm packing all of my stuff and that's when I'm going to move in with my brother because my brother is so lonely . He really needs me there like he was the one who asked for me to come to him. He's so nice as well and he's got this amazing cat. Misty she's so cute. She's so cuddly and sweet and she's really protective. Which is the best part about her because every time someone gets to harass me, she was left them in the face and which is really cute but then she gets out of a really sharp claws. Which are actually really sharp. And then she likes scratches or nearly and it's actually really funny. My mum doesn't find it funny though when she's attacking my siblings but I'm just laughing. Because it's funny.
And that's how you show that something is funny by laughing . My mum hasn't been happy recently. She wants to get me out the house. Apparently I'm the most blame clumsy idiotic sibling out of all of them. Apparently I have no talent I'm useless and I'm destroying the family reputation by my terrible fashion sense.
All I wear it is really nice cargoes, which I absolutely love which are like tanny,  beige sort of colour. And I wear my favourite blue crop top as well. My outfits are cute, stylish and neutral gender because I don't want to be walking around with super short skirts and dresses like my parents do. As you might be able to tell, I have two mothers. My father died when I was young and my mother didn't know how to cope with it so she got me remarried and she didn't want to get my hair to mail again, so she got married to my other. Elizabeth, or as we call her, Lizzie.
Why does everyone's life seems so perfect. In my family, except mine like I'm the outcast. The one that doesn't belong. Something has just left behind after moving house something left at school in the changing rooms never to be found again.

It's like none of my family members, even want me there, like, I'm spoiling the all the things that they could get, and I'm just crashing, ruining their party. It's not fair. People say life is not fair is it, saying I'm pretty sure that you would've heard of it, but that saying ruined my life. One simple thing that life is not fair, why should yours, even be the slightest? Simple things that me off. I punched my stepmum in the face. She said that I was a regrettable thing easy to get over. You see what I mean by that. She is unfair, rude trolling, extremely controlling. Never knew someone to be like that. Until now... wondering whether I'm actually going to wake up on time for school I'm just going to skip once again. It's a challenge for me to think of a reason why I should go to school. I barely missed a few days so I think I should go get my mind off all the tragic things are happening. And what I mean by tragic things is that my family members are practically bullying me. That's not my happen. It's the way of the world. People say. It's how are you meant to live life. The way mother nature of places as it's the way that we have to deal with it. The features of God give us us what we have to deal with. The way that we move it speak as well we have to deal with. The way we are socialising society and depression is what we have to deal with. That makes no sense. To me anyway...