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Nayeon's Point of View

Maybe dad is right maybe nahuhulog na ang loob ko kay jeongyeon? what if tuluyan na akong nahulog sa kanya what if maging bisexual nalang ako para lang sa kanya?






Pag uwi naman nila jeongyeon agad naman akong pumunta sa labi ni kuya dylan and agad naman akong huminga ng malalim and pinagmamasdan ko lang sya para lang sya natutulog








"Kuya can you help me to fight this feelings? hindi ko alam kung paano ko ilulugar tong nararamdaman ko" sabi ko lang dito habang nakatitig sa kanya








"Diba kuya sinabi mo sa akin before you died that hindi ako basta basta magtitiwala sa mga lalaki? pero babae ang natitiwala ko eh" saad ko dito









I remember when i talked to my kuya about my ex boyfriend sunghoon na nasa korea pa ako that time nung nagkilala kami and nagtagal din kami ng 3 years but sadly we broke up because he cheated









Actually my dad knows about him pinakilala ko sya nung umuwi kami ng pilipinas with him of course he didnt understand speaking filipino









Flashback...




"Uhm dad tita alice this is my boyfriend sunghoon he is very famous star in korea uhm oppa this is my dad and my stepmom" pagpapakilala ko dito and sunghoon just smiled at them









"Nice to meet you sunghoon i hope that you wouldn't hurt my daughter" sabi nalang ni dad and sunghoon just nodded and bigla naman akong kinausap ni kuya dylan when he is still alive










"Ilang years na kayo ni sunghoon did you already know him?" tanong nya and i just sighed









"Yes kuya i really know him and 1 year nadin kami so what's the matter?" tanong ko naman dito and he just sighed










"I didnt trust please nayeon listen to me okay beware sa mga lalaking nakikilala mo and lalo na dyan kay sunghoon feeling ko lolokohin kalang wag kang agad magtitiwala sa boyfriend mo lalo na sa mga lalaking lumalapit sayo" sagot naman nya dito










"Oh god kuya sunghoon will never do that hindi nya ako sasaktan and he will never cheated on me kuya trust me and sunghoon everything will be fine" saad ko nalang dito









And in 2018, I found out that sunghoon is already cheating on me with his girl's best friend i caught him on his phone that he's chatting with his girl bestfriend and i confront him but he denies and he lies everything










"Oppa who is seulgi who is she did you know her?" tanong ko dito









"Relax unnie she was just my best friend and we have no relationship okay" sagot naman nya dito









"Best friend? really i didnt believe on you sunghoon i know that you are cheating on me!?" galit kong tanong dito and he just sighed









"Come on believe on me unnie i will never cheat on you okay trust me me and seulgi are just bestfriends" sagot naman nya









Then nahuli ko sila mismo sa condo ni sunghoon na magkasama at magkayakap and i confronted them








"So what is this sunghoon friends with benefits huh? are you fooling me dumbass?" tanong ko and agad naman lumapit sa akin si sunghoon








"Unnie let me explain that's not what you think" tanging sagot nya and i slapped him many times and agad ko naman sinugod ang best friend nya









"Do you think you are prettier? well i am much prettier than you bitch and what the fuck?" saad ko dito and agaf naman akong pinigilan ni sunghoon








"Please nayeon dont drag seulgi here if you are mad at her please just mad at me not to her okay?" Sabi nito and i slapped him again










"I trusted you sunghoon! my family trust you and my brother was right you are a cheater and i shouldn't trust you i wish nakinig nalang ako kay kuya" saad ko dito










"Im sorry nayeon please just respect us i love sunghoon and if the people know this about sunghoon's cheating our image was being ruined" sumbat naman ni seulgi and natawa nalang ako









"Well deserve you bitch and you sunghoon i dont want to see your fucking face again you cheater from now on we are done!" huling sabi ko and umalis na ako









Then pag uwi ko ng pinas hindi parin ako maka move on sa kanya because i loved him so much mahal na mahal ko talaga sya pero nung niloko nya ako ang sakit sakit hindi alam ng pamilya ko na wala na kaming dalawa ni sunghoon









Ang unang nakaalam si kuya dylan of course he is my comforter...








"Kuya may sasabihin sana ako sayo sana wag kang magagalit" i said and nagtaka naman sya









"Then what is it my dear sister?" tanong nya and huminga naman ako ng malalim and i hugged him tightly









"Me and sunghoon are already broke up kuya he cheated on me you are right kuya he is a cheater i shouldn't trust him" sagot ko naman dito and niyakap naman nya ako pabalik










"Shhh its alright sis you dont deserve that man you deserve better than him okay nandito lang si kuya sayo okay forget him forget that bastard!" sabi nalang nya










End of flashback...






"Kuya ano kaya ang mararamdaman mo if magmahal ulit ako? anong mararamdaman mo kapag inamin ko na may feelings ako sa isang babae and inamin ko din na bisexual ako? if buhay kapa kuya sana nalaman mo na agad eh" sabi ko dito




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