I didn't realize soon enough.

Oh Izzy.

I didn't realize it would be so soon.

I didn't realize that you would be in my arms dying.

I didn't realize how much you loved me until now.

I didn't realize how you were there for me.

I didn't realize how I made you cry.

I didn't realize how I made you hurt.

I didn't realize that you cared so much for me yet I couldn't return the feeling you shared..

I didn't realize that you wanted to help me.

I didn't realize you loved me in a way Stede never could.

I didn't realize that we couldn't be just friends.

I didn't realize the many years you loved me.

I didn't realize how you comforted Me.

I didn't realize that I would be this broken.

I didn't realize that a piece of my heart is missing even with Stede around.

I didn't realize that was the piece of my heart you filled.

I didn't realize that you would die like this in my arms so happily.

I didn't realize why you were happy.

But I do now Izzy.

You knew.

I realized that you knew you were going to die.

I realized you are happy to finally be at peace with no more hurt in your heart.

I didn't realize how much I loved you until now.

Oh Izzy.

I didn't realize soon enough..