My art book #4

a lil thing i wrote

So- I showed my bestie a w.i.p of a recent drawing I did

And then I proceeded to write a lil drabble about it- uhh I'm horrible at writing- but I wanted to share 👉👈

----

Onyx knows what he is

He's a machine

He's not human

And he never will be

So when you and him get close, he starts to feel things he was never programmed with

Fear and worry whenever you get hurt on the job, when normally, he wouldn't give two shits

Humor, he'll chuckle at your jokes, no matter how stupid

He'll be more caring, giving you snacks here and there if you forget to eat breakfast or lunch

You've made him feel things, and there's two ways that this can go when you finally confess how you feel about him
----------------------------------

He'll look at you with a blank expression before a smirk forms on his face, and he lets out a slight disapproving huff

He'll lean down, getting closer to your level, but still very much towering over you, and he'll ask "are you sure you want to do that darling?"

And when you give him a confused look, not understanding why he was acting like this, he'll chuckle and step towards you, his head tilting "I asked you a question, little dipper"

His voice has a sharpness to it that you can't understand, you'll furrow your brow and let out a confident, yet slightly hesitant "yes, of course I do Onyx... I wouldn't be saying it if I didn't mean it"

That smirk on his face grows, and he takes another step towards you, forcing you to step back into a wall you didn't know was there, officially pinned in by the bot

He'll lean in closer, his eyes boring holes into your small form as he lets out a static filled chuckle "you must be mistaking me for human"

You can feel your heart hammering in your chest, and you're certain he can hear it too, since he glances down at your chest before quickly looking back at you

"what's with that look starling?" He'll ask, spinning his head back into an upright position "you look confused"

You swallow the lump that'd formed in your throat and speak in a slightly hushed tone "I don't understand what you're saying by that" you say, refuring to his earlier statement of mistaking him for human

You knew he wasn't human, but you didn't care about that. You didn't care about what he was. It was who he was

"Allow me to explain" He says as he puts a hand on his chest "I am a Machine. My body is made of metal and wires. My entire being is code, ones, and zeros." he taps his face with his other hand, the motion making a small tink of metal on metal "I can not love you. I am incapable of love"
--------------------------------------

You have the rejection, which is where he's brutally honest with you. Letting you know exactly how he feels

Or you have the one where when you confess, he returns the feelings, but with hesitancy

As I said, he knows he's not human. And he's scared that maybe he can't/won't be able to love you the way you want to be loved.

Won't be able to love you as fully as another human can

------------------------------------

So when you do confess, he freezes, his joints creaking just abit at the suddenness of it before he slowly turns to face you "are- are you sure?"

You chuckle and raise a brow at him "of course I'm sure, I wouldn't have said it if I didn't mean it"

His expression is unreadable, but you can see the furrow in his brow, almost as if he doesn't believe you. But before you can say anything, maybe take it all back and play it off as a joke. His face softens. And he leans down, lightly bonking his forehead against yours

"I- I feel the same way for you... but.." he pauses, leaning away slightly as he averts his eyes, his brows knitting in worry "but I'm worried I won't- be good enough" he all but mumbles

You've never seen him like this. He's never been this vulnerable with you, and it's got you worried. Reaching a hand out, you gently take his face and make him look at you "Onyx... you are more than enough" you tell him with a soft smile

He ever so slightly leans into your touch, closing his eyes as he lets out a small synthetic sigh "but I feel like I'm not going to be able to love you like you want to be. I'm not programmed to love"