A Waiting Game

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Liv POV:

"You ain't had no problem when my mouf was on fat ma the other day.  Jesus and all his angels approved that day." I'm getting so sick of these fake gay hoes playing with me.

"You already know how I grew up and how my family is babe."

"So basically you can be a dick sucking hoe and have umpteen babies, but as long as you don't eat no cootie they good with you? Bet. I get it." I know that was kinda harsh but she been stringing me along for years.

"Olivia why do you always gotta do this? Our lil arrangement been working since high school, why you tryna force the issue?" She asked with a sincere face.

"Bitch I'm not stupid, I just look like this. You think I'm finna be loyal to you and you care more about your family opinion than my heart? I love you K. I accepted that you was in the closet. Now you want me to accept you letting a nigga touch what's mine just so your hypocritical preaching ass granddaddy don't find out you dyking? Man gone on bruh cause you bouta piss me off."

"It's not that simple. He's a well known pastor and my parents are too. Everybody in my family does something in the church except me. I can't be the reason the family gets shamed because they barely like me anyways. When I dyed my hair they literally told me I looked like a pornstar." She said back tearfully. I felt for her, but what she was asking me to do was way too far.

"Look I get it. I grew up in church too so I know how them people can be, but it's not fair for you to be out here fucking with niggas, even if it is just to keep up appearances, while I'm over here with a broken heart. I've been faithful to you and I deserve more than that." I was done being her secret thrill. I was cool when it was just us, but now she's in a "relationship" with a dude and her family all but forcing them towards the altar. I refuse to watch her marry somebody else just to keep her family happy.

"What was the point of me falling in love with you if this how it gotta be?" I asked genuinely but rhetorically. I didn't want to hear whatever bullshit answer she was about to give me.

"Liv I've loved you since the 10th grade before I even really knew I was into women. Even after I realized it, you were the first and only person that I knew loved me for me and not my looks or my family's connections. I just......I just need a little more time to try to figure out how to tell them...............and him." We'd been messing around for like 6 or 7 years and together officially for a few.  I could tell she really wanted to be open with me but her wanting it and her being about it is two different things.

I'm not trying to force her to be out, I just want to be sure that if I'm investing my time and my love into her, that it's a two way street. I'm not going for her dating and fucking niggas while I be the fool. It's too many bad bitches wishing I'd pull up with my backpack for me to be a clown for a girl that's scared to say she like pussy.

"K, bro you know I been down for you since the day we met, but I can't sit around waiting for you to be done letting people who don't love you unconditionally control your life. I never hid who I am or who I loved and these last 3 years with you been a challenge, but I stood here by your side, patiently. Now you expect me to be okay with you not only hiding me, but cheating too? I ca........"

"So you're breaking up with me? Olivia please don't do this to me......." She cut me off breaking into tears. We've had this same argument over and over the last few months and I always say I'm done but this time I mean it.

"Baby please don't leave me." She begs on her knees holding on to my waist with one arm while using her free hand to unbuckle my belt. She knew I couldn't say no once she put her mouth on me.