[ This is Jeong Chang in POV ]
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As a child I thought I was a genius.
From a clueless childhood to middle school, high school and college, I have never seen anyone better than me.
In fact, it is not by one's own perception that one considers oneself a genius. It was because everyone around me saw me and said so.
People are creatures that form the way they see them, so even before they grow up, they all look surprised when they see me and praise me in a loud, happy voice, and say that there will never be such a prodigy again, so I really became such a person.
I studied better than my age, exercised better, and knew how to live well. I also knew how to get what I wanted more easily. They say I was a clever little boy.
Fortunately, my family had enough money to give a child who heard the sound of a prodigy a good education for gifted children. So I was able to show off my talents and energy to my heart's content.
Soon I got tired of competing with children my age in my environment. It was so one-sided that it was not fun to compete with them.
Around that time, I learned about foreign gifted education organizations. When I heard about the place where my beloved gifted children are going, I thought I should go there. And so did my parents and people who knew me. So when I was still young, I went to study abroad alone with my swollen heart and left my family behind.
And as a result. I got to know the reality.
In reality, I was still a genius. I adapted well there, too, and soon I was able to achieve above average results.
But it was 'below average'.
I was a genius in real life, but I wasn't a genius there. I was just a little bit of a smart kid.
My young conceit was shattered, and there I was able to learn to adapt in reality to a half-baked genius of my own. It was a very useful process.
Only then did I make a friend, I could talk without feeling stuffy, and I could meet someone who understood me besides my family. Now that I think about it, it was the most useful thing I've ever had.
Not a genius to change the world, but I was great enough to be the pride of the family. When I entered a leading overseas university safely at an earlier age than average without much difficulty, my brother, who raised me instead of my late father, was so happy that he shed tears.
I got along very well with my brother. My brother was already an adult when I was young. It's not just because there's a big age gap. My brother's heart sank early. My brother was always mature and had a sound mind. I made the right decision, if not fast. I don't know how much I loved and followed such a brother.
However, there was only one biologically fatal weakness for such a brother. Unfortunately, I found out only after he got married, but my brother was difficult to make a child. It's right to say that he couldn't make a baby.
However, my brother and sister-in-law had a great desire for children, and eventually they asked me for help. I readily agreed. So about a year later, my brother and sister-in-law were able to have children.
Biologically, it was my child, but no one thought so. Of course I am. My brother said he would give me one of the children, but I never intended to. I still don't have it. The children were only the children of their brother and sister-in-law.
However, what a person recognized once did not change so easily. Even if I thought it had changed, there were many unconscious thoughts at the bottom.
Although I was not the best genius in the world, I came out of a prestigious university with the highest academic background that recognized the world without any difficulty and immediately entered UNHRDO. At this rate, no one could say that it was excellent That's what I thought.
