Stuck in myself

Renad

Renad is a very secretive girl who does not tell many people what is inside her, even though many of those around her are close...Renad has a rather rare condition called aphantasia, which makes her unable to imagine or remember the past clearly, and this is what made her psychological state worse..The first bad stage in Renad's life was the death of her grandfather, who was very close to her... She was 8 years old..  On that morning, Renad felt that something was going to happen. Her palate was pulsating strangely. She was not comfortable... until her aunt called her mother, and the news struck the hearts of the family like a thunderbolt, because the grandfather was very kind..Renad was his favorite granddaughter, and he was her favorite person as well, because he would bring her whatever she wanted, play with her, and laugh with her...But Renad did not shed a tear that day because she was in a state of shock .. She could not go to her grandfather's funeral because the city was far away and Renad was studying, so her father did not take her with them.. A week passed since the death of her grandfather, then months, then years. Renad began to feel the loss of her grandfather and cried whenever she remembered him. His image began to fade from her mind, and she could not help but see the darkness when she closed her eyes..After a year had passed, Renad decided to investigate and found out what made her unable to imagine. Renad was disappointed that scientists did not know much about this condition, but she lived with it..