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Chaper 6: What About the Future ?

(Ash's perspective)

~1 week later~

"Hey boss, just wanted to call and let you know we're excited to see you back next week." Said Johnny. Fuck. I do have to get to Florida and get back in the office. "Can't wait to be back too, I got to go, keep yourself safe Johnny." I say. This past week has been amazing. I've never been happier and more relaxed in my life. Every day I look forward to my lady coming over and letting me eat that sweet nectar pussy she got. We watch movies, go on dates, laugh about stupid shit, talk about everything... I've really never met a woman so perfect. She makes me feel like I'm not so alone in this world.

~ 7:00 pm ~

Today has been hard on me. I've been thinking nonstop about how i'm going to have to leave ATL soon. My girlfriend is already jumpy and if I say anything about our relationship having to change I know she'll jump right out of my life. It was hard enough getting her to open her ass, I mean, heart to me. I just hope we can continue to talk after I leave. I don't want nobody else pushing up on my boo. She won't admit she has a girlfriend yet if someone approaches her, but i'm sure she knows where home is. Even if I haven't asked officially, she knows we're together like that. *Ponders in delusion.* Yeah, she definitely knows we're together. I mean she did say she loves me... Maybe I should talk to her about it tonight just to be sure though. I just don't want this connection to end.

- Flashback to 6 years ago. -

"Dammit Tee, can't you see what i'm trying to create for us?! What else do you want from me?!" I say while tears run down my face.

"Look man, I just can't see myself being married and laid up with another stud. What will people think ? My friends, my family, my coworkers ? People already find it hard to accept me, what will they do with you by my side popping up to places ?" She says irritated.

"Why do you even care about that ? If the shitheads don't accept you, they ain't yo friends ! We already put so much into this relationship, why would you walk away now ? We practically already committed, I'm just trying to create a life and a family with you ! Can't you see how much I'm trying ? What's so wrong about moving this forward ?!" I continue crying.

" A family ? Are you kidding me ? You think i'm about to be some little house wife sitting up in a house taking care of some kids ? You knew what this was when we got together. A private, casual and lowkey relationship. That's it, that's all. I think the timer has run out for us. I never said I wanted to be with you forever. I don't even know why you put those ideas in your head. Two studs getting married ? You a freak for even thinking that could work. We could never live together. I can't do this shit anymore, you're becoming a crazy bitch. I thought you could handle this arrangement." she snarked.

"ARRANGEMENT ? Five years together is a fucking arrangement to you ?!! You're here every night, we do relationship shit, we spend all this time together. Don't play like i'm insane. We've been so good, all I want is for us to solidify the connection so we could grow this. You think i'm about to be with someone for this long and not want to live together ?! No one is saying we have to get married tomorrow but fuck Tee would it be so bad ?! 5 years means nothing to you ?? Why stay if you didn't want this long term ?" I shout passionately.

"Listen this has been cool, but you ain't the only woman that wants me. I got bad bitches that I can actually be seen with ! Why the hell would I pick you over them ? This ain't no fucking fairytale n*gga ! I need to be with a fem and that's exactly what i'm going to do. You think i'd want to live the rest of my life being sick of how people see me and my bitch ? Hell fucking no. Face it Ash, this shit won't ever work. Nobody is going to want you. Nobody is going to spend their life being ashamed just to fuel your stupid little imagination. Now I suggest you do the same as me, and get you a bitch you can actually be out with. We done man. It's over. " She says walking towards the door.