Meant To Be Yours

A Curse

               ~ Arlovia ~
                   (Pov)

Few days passed...

Every thing was going on great

Or it seemed so......

Even though i knew what's going i buried my thoughts beneath a thin and fragile layer of happyness and in the try of protecting my smile

I was willing to cry
I was willing to do anything
To make my love stay

So i did
I bandaged my broken glass heart
And i did whatever i can...

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I got know that i was getting cheated
So i asked politely..

"Hey.. i heard you're dating someone else is that true? Don't be afraid hon tell the truth am always with you remember"

The next tune to my ears made me go into the depths of ocean for a while

Where time doesn't works

"Sweetheart am so sorry please forgive me I wanted tell you but I didn't knew how am so sorry"

The begging coming from a beautiful mouth was no longer the reason of my happiness

Coming back to earth gulping my sorrows
I smiled while holding back my hot tears

I formed the words for which my destiny hated me

"We can still be friends right ?"

"Of course we can "

Chortling he added

"Well you got two new titles you see"

Confused i looked and asked

"What?"

"My ex and my bestie hehe"

His smile was genuine and mine was fake

"Haha very funny" hitting his arm playfully i added "let's go to class we're getting late"

"Ok..mind if my don't sit with you?"

Gulping the feeling building in me i nodded
And he took his leave

Through the day i saw the repeating moment which we spent but I wasn't there anymore

The day of eternity finally passed
Playing the song deja vu by Olivia Rodrigo I walked home longing for the touch of his hand in mine
Watching his hand not in mine but in someone else's

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I kept a happy face for my family
I kept the rage inside for my fragile glass heart
I swallowed the emotions for the promises i made
I kept myself from throwing up for myself but i couldn't

Cuz i don't deserve anything done for myself

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Lying on my bed again and again i hoped for my phone to buzz but it didn't
I got fed up and texted a good night instead

Getting the immediate response i smiled again

It was real

As soon as i closed my eyes the memories started playing by themselves

I couldn't keep my feelings in me anymore
They were banging in my head..

The feeling of jealousy towards her
The feeling of hatred towards

Myself

The feeling of thirst

A thirst which was never filled by just with water

It was supposed to be filled with a deed
A terrible deed

A sin which i couldn't help for a curse

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Also what do you think the curse is about and what is the sin

Guess......

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