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Aaliyah Gordon 🦋
Dating someone whos in the spotlight was never something easy. its never easy for anyone. watching other people speak on them, the flirts, the cameras constantly, everything.
It was hard to watch duke do all these videos that involved other girls, it bothered me. i knew i could trust him, but it was them i didn't trust.
I'd go to work with him and watch him film with AMP sometimes, and it only broke my heart even more. before i wouldn't care. i knew duke was all mines. but watching him smile at them, and them smiling at him..it made me wonder if he saw something in them that he didn't see in me.
did he think they were prettier? had a better personality? better job? did their body look better?
i thought about every little thing and as much as i hated it, i couldn't help it. I started comparing myself to these girls and it was starting to mess with my head. i lost my confidence and it was even effecting my relationship with duke.
i didn't want to talk to him about how i felt. i didn't want to seem like i was being insecure or trying to pull him away from his job, even though that's not the case at all. duke loved his job and i'd never do anything to purposely ruin that for him. i just feared that he wouldn't understand if i tried to explain it to him. but i knew i'd have to sooner or later, he was already noticing my change in behavior.
"Aaliyah."
I snapped out of my thoughts and turned to the direction of the voice. i saw my boyfriend staring at me with a concerned look. "i'm sorry i spaced out, wassup?"
"i asked if you were done eating"
I looked down at my plate. I barely touched it but i wasn't hungry. I nodded and he got up and put our plates in the sink. It was around 8 in the morning and i got up to make us breakfast. He walked back into the dining room and sat down next to me, grabbing hold of my hand. i looked at him, furrowing my eyebrows.
"wassup wit you? you been acting differently" he said, a look of genuineness and concern in his eyes.
i hesitated before taking a deep breath and break eye contact. "i'm fine, duke. just tired from work that's all" i lied.
"well then if work is the issue, quit. i already told you i got you. you don't gotta be working and stressing yourself out" he told me.
i nodded in response. "yeah i know i just rather be out than here by myself"
"then come with me. you're always welcome, you know that" he offered.
