My hatred of love

Befor the beginning, i am asking you, to be please not mean. It would be unfair to read it and then say bullsh*t because you don't know the Person behinde this.
Thank you, fulcum
 

Since a year i know that i am bisexuel and i am okay with that. I have a really sweet Boyfriend and great friends, with them i can talk about everything. But there is also a Girl. She is sweet, she is kind. I love how she can make me feel safe. Of course, i am happy with my Boyfriend and i am not someone who cheated on someone there loved. But still this Girl is amazing and i sometimes i can't get her out of my head. I am confused as f*ck because right now i have everything i could wish for. I totally don't know what should i do. So i true to hide my feelings. So,no one would get hurt. But still i am unsure of what i should do. I am afraid because i don't want to lose nobody from both. I am so confused with my feelings.  This  is now since a few weeks but still i can't decide what to do. I hope everything will end up well. But i know myself and my luck a bit. More like i tecnelly don't have a lot of luck with my social skills.