Snow Fall

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Yesterday I planned to kill myself, my third attempt? I can't keep track since I always fail my attempts, since I fail I self harm myself , it's been going on for a year now I do it because I can't deal with things on my own. I sound like a big baby don't I? At least that's what I heard, words sure can get into your head..don't they?

Everyone makes it seem like I'm the bad guy I'm always the angry person I'm always grumpy I'm a crybaby, that's just stupid am I right?

When I walk into the school building, I put on my headphones blasting music hopefully no one can hear it I don't know who is who everyone is the same.

Well when I was in middle school, "Paige I heard the new student is a boy", "A boy really?", "I heard he's super tall and he wears glasses". The bell rung, "alright class settle down, we have a new student", the class was silent I remember everyone just stared at the boy that walked into class he was a different boy, a boy I never seen before.

He had those big stupid glasses, they were like Harry Potter classes, he had a big sticker on his face, he was a big fan of sonic, he was just so dumb, dumber then Ariel, every time he laughed he would snort, sometimes even snot would come out which was disgusting, he sat in front of me, I would stare at his curly hair forever.

He had this disorder, what was it called? He had Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) I always bullied him for it, he was just a big dumb dumb dumb little boy. Me and my friends would spray water on him at the park, one of my friends Angel she would stomp on his books, he had an ugly cry, he would cry so bad I could puke, I never cared of what his name was so I called him Liam, I can't remember his real name currently.

"Paige! Come downstairs it's time for school", "coming Dad!". Paige closed her diary she hid it under her bed, she ran down the steps almost tripping, "hey Dad!" Paige put her shoes on. "Don't tell me you slept in again" Paige Dad was in the kitchen finishing up breakfast. "Where's my headphones?" Paige looked under the table hitting her head on the table, "shit! Ow, there it is" Paige grabbed her headphones, she put her headphones on, she grabbed her phone putting on music.

"Paige there's something I wanted to talk to you about", Paige couldn't hear her Dad, Paige grabbed her backpack "Bye dad see ya!", Paige was out the door.

Paige hopped onto her bike, she put her phone in her pocket she begin to ride off. On her way to school she saw a mini bread stand, she stopped her bike and hopped off, "how much for that banana bread right there?". After Paige payed for the bread she hopped back onto her bike and begin to ride off.

"Look at your stupid glasses!" Everyone laughed "you should shave your head, it'll make you less stupid!" Chuckled a little girl. "That's right Paige! Show him who's boss".

Paige made it to school, she got off her bike and sat it near the bike area, she grabbed her backpack and put on her headphones. She slowly walked into the building in her head she started counting. "One..two..three..four"..

"YO Paige!", an older boy that was in twelfth grade the boy ran towards Paige. He snatched the headphones off her ears, "what ya listening to?" The boy put on the headphones.

Paige wouldn't budge to speak, the boy took off the headphones and sat them back on Paige head. "Alright I got the vape you wanted" he handed the vape to Paige, "it's an early birthday gift". Paige grabbed the vape and put it in her pocket, she signaled peace with her fingers. She walked away from the boy, the boy grabbed Paige hand "don't forget if you need me, call the school phone, my name is Koka".

Paige snatched her hand from Koka, she continued walking. Paige begin counting in her head again, "five..six..seven..eight". She made in her classroom, her seat was all the way in the back.

She sat down laying her head on top of her desk. No one hang with Paige, everyone left her. A familiar voice begin to mumble something to someone. "Paige is such a wannabe depressed" half of the class giggled, "like I have depression, it makes be upset when someone mocks it!".

The bell had rung, everyone sat down in their seats, a teacher walks in. "Good morning class" the students replied back "good morning Mr. Jackson". Paige still had her head down until a balled up paper hit her head, she lifted her head up slowly she looked around to see who threw the paper ball.

It was the girl who was talking about Paige earlier. What was her name? Paige asked herself, I can't remember. Paige turned back around without grabbing the paper ball.

"Angel!" Mr. Jackson yelled out, oh so that's her name..why can I remember her? "Pay attention up here!" Mr. Jackson pointed at the chalk board, "sorry sir!" The class laughed and whispered, Angel laughed along with everyone.

"Eww get off me freak!" Angel pushed the boy on the ground. "High five Angel!" Paige laughed, they both hugged each other. "Let's get away from the freak, come on!", Angel grabbed Paige and walked off. Paige stopped for a quick second to look at the boy, he was crying. "What an ugly crybaby".

Paige was walking to her bike after school ended, she got onto her bike as she was about to get off a voice called out. "Paige!", Paige turned around to see where the voice was calling, it was an old friend.