teacher crush

award assembly

I had started collage, a whole new chapter. I enjoyed it to say the least. Collage is certainly a lot easier and laid back compared to high school. I liked my tutor, she was nice but speaking to her always felt like there was something missing. Her. She was missing. It wasn't her, and never will be.

November 21st, the day of the award assembly. I was excited to be going back to my old school, seeing my old friends, classmates and of course teachers. I didn't know if she would be there. All I could do was hope she was.

I walked into the smaller looking hall, to my memory, to be pleasantly greeted with that same familiar smile. I smiled back and walk to find a couple spare seats, which ended up being at the back. Me and my family sat down, while my mum asked me why I had a great smile on my face. I simply didn't remember and turned my head towards the front. The assembly was long and drawn out. I couldn't help but look forward to talk to her again. That is if she wanted to talk to me and get caught up on each others life's like we used to do a few mere months ago. A lot can change in a persons life in such short time. It was time for the awards to be handed out. There was 6 forms in my year group. But only 3 tutors came to the assembly, so they did 2 forms each. My tutor found a new job sadly so she wasn't here. But I could only think about if Miss K would be handing me my award.

After the long wait and the 5 forms to have been read out and handed there awards the head of year finally spoke out the letters of my form. "11THQ, Miss K would you take over for Mrs T's form please." I heard a small response of "it'd be my pleasure" as she said in a sort of low tone. She started reading names when she looked down and smiled and said my name. I squirmed in my chair as she said it, but not enough for anyone to have noticed. I gathered myself together and stood up and walked to the front. To her. As I walked up to her, she smiled and whispered to me "abit late arnt you" but she said it in a sort of laughing tone, as to make a joke. I slightly chuckled and replied back "like always" and she smiled and finished with a small short hug and a "well done y/n" as she handed me my award looked genuinely proud to hand me it, as if she didn't deserve to give me it. When she really did. She helped me come so far in her lessons, even if it was because I pushed myself to get better for her. I wanted to make myself better for her. I wouldn't have even come to school if it wasn't for her math lessons. She kept me at school, kept me learning and she didn't even realise it. She impacted myself life so much more then anyone can ever understand.
I walked back to my seat and waited until the final people were handed there awards. After everyone had there awards, we were given extra time to celebrate with our friends and family and talk to ex-students and teachers. I just sat in my seat talking to my best friend when I saw her in the corner of my eye. She smiled at me and sat down directly behind me. She started speaking to us, but she never took her eyes off of me. We spoke about many things. All the things I had hoped to speak to her about since I hadn't seen her. I felt my smile gradually get wider as we were talking. 10 minutes had gone by and I said I needed to go sign the sheet at the front, so I got up and started walking when she got up and followed me. I hadn't realised until I started speaking to my old science teacher when I could feel her gaze on me. She was stood behind me watching us talk. As if to be making sure nothing was going on. After the short conversation had ended she started speaking to me again. I asked her how maths was since i wasn't there and I was her favourite student (everyone would say it to me because she always talked about me but I would disagree to make them keep talking about us) but her response wasn't what I had I expected. She told me she found a new y/n, "a girl who says they can't do it and complains they will never be able to complete the tasks, but never fails to manage to complete the task by the end of the lesson." I felt something inside of me shatter. My heart. Her saying that felt like a shot to the heart.
But then repair a little when she added "but no one will take your spot" I slightly smiled, after being so hurt.

I sighed the sheet and went off to talk to my friends and other teachers. About 20-30 minutes later, I was going round to say bye to my friends and I could see her speaking with them so I went over ti said my goodbyes but I could see her deep into conversation so I just left her. However when I went to turn around I heard her soft voice say my name I looked back and heard " good bye y/!n well done." The fact she had stopped mid conversation had me on my knees there and then

-hi author here, should I continue with this story? :)