Midnight (Not)Fairytales

My friends don't really hate me, my brain does {Rant #1}

i live with the constant fear that people I meet or befriend are all going to hate me or already do. It's pretty stressful, to be honest. Because I really, really want to make friends.

Mainly, this makes me act quiet, shy or even rude around certain people that I actually would love to be friends of, making it two times harder to actually achieve it and if I (actually) make it and become their friends, every single interaction I have with them I'll spend it thinking I'm an annoying little bitch and they actually hate me.

I'm tired of this shit, brain, why don't you help me for once?

*disclaimer: image from tumblr user laulurasta*