secrets (little taeyong)

Chapter 5

Taeyong's POV

The night had been a tumultuous journey, leaving traces of vulnerability in its wake. As the sun painted the sky with hues of dawn, I found myself reflecting on the moments that unfolded in the quiet hours. The weight of secrecy and the yearning for acceptance had led me to explore the depths of my littlespace, exposing the raw vulnerability I had kept hidden for so long.

Doyoung, the steadfast friend who had walked beside me through the shadows, understood the nuances of my littlespace. His unwavering support became a lifeline, guiding me through the intricacies of acceptance and self-discovery. As the sun's first rays streamed into the room, Doyoung entered with a gentle smile.

"Good morning, Taeyong. How are you feeling?"

I mustered a small smile in return, appreciating the genuine concern in Doyoung's eyes. "Better, I think. Last night was… cathartic."

Doyoung nodded, understanding the weight of unspoken emotions. "I'm here for you, Taeyong. Always."

As the day unfolded, Doyoung surprised me with a thoughtful gesture. He presented a small package, revealing a pacifier and a baby bottle. My eyes widened with a mix of surprise and gratitude.

"These are for you," Doyoung explained. "Little things to help you feel more comfortable in your littlespace."

The pacifier and bottle, symbols of innocence, became tangible reminders of acceptance. Doyoung's gesture transcended the confines of friendship, reaching into the heart of my littlespace with understanding and care. I felt a surge of warmth, a realization that I wasn't alone in this journey.

Days turned into nights, and Doyoung's support became a constant presence. The pacifier and bottle, once foreign, became cherished companions in the quiet moments when I allowed myself to regress into my littlespace. The comfort they provided became a bridge between the vulnerabilities I harbored and the acceptance I craved.

However, amid the newfound solace, the shadows of Jaehyun's curiosity loomed. He couldn't shake the desire to understand the intricacies of my recent struggles. One evening, as the members gathered in the living area, Jaehyun approached me with a furrowed brow.

"Taeyong, we've all noticed some changes. Can you tell me what's going on?"

Caught off guard, I hesitated before responding, "It's personal, Jaehyun. I appreciate your concern, but some things are meant to be private."

Jaehyun's eyes bore into mine, his curiosity undeterred. "We're a team, Taeyong. If something's affecting you, it affects all of us."

I sighed, feeling the weight of unspoken tensions settling between us. "I'm working through some things, Jaehyun. It's a process, and I need time."

As the days passed, Jaehyun's persistent inquiries continued, fueled by an unresolved curiosity that strained the fragile threads of understanding within NCT. Doyoung, sensing the growing tension, suggested a meeting to address the underlying issues.

In the quiet of our shared space, Doyoung and I sat down with Jaehyun, aiming to bridge the gap that had widened over time. Doyoung spoke first, his words measured and compassionate. "Jaehyun, we value the bond we share as a group. Taeyong is navigating some personal challenges, and we're here to support him. We need your understanding and patience."

Jaehyun, torn between curiosity and the desire to support his fellow member, nodded reluctantly. "I just want to know that we're all on the same page."

"We are," Doyoung assured him. "But some things take time to unfold. Let's be patient and trust each other."

The meeting concluded with a tentative understanding, the tensions easing, if only slightly. As the days turned into weeks, NCT faced the complexities of their relationships with a renewed commitment to support each other. The pacifier and baby bottle, once symbols of personal comfort, became a testament to the shared journey of acceptance and understanding within the group.

In the quiet of my room, surrounded by the echoes of my littlespace, I found solace in the gradual acceptance that unfolded within NCT. The journey was far from over, but the little moments of support became beacons of hope, guiding us through the shadows toward a shared horizon of understanding.