I'll never trust again

I hate you

We were too busy
Being lost in each other
You said i love you
That time i knew
I knew it wasn't a lie
I heard you say it right into my eyes
But as time went by
Did the love die out?

I hate that you were generous,
but still a bit dangerous
And your monologues,
that your wrote me all night long
I hate the way i miss waking up next to you
or seeing 'unread messages' coming through
And i smile as i read the lines
'cause you always knew,
how to make me laugh
I hate that even after everything you did,
i just couldn't hate you at all
I still look for you, you know
in the dark, around the park
On the bench, our last hug was wenched
Maybe i wouldn't let you go so fast than
if i knew it was our last met
I hate the way, our stupid necklaces aligned
together for the last time,
as our hearts combined,
as you kissed me in the park
before our last talk.

But I didn't forget
The times you upset
When you cancelled
In that dumb sweater
Or didnt bother to call and say
'Sorry babe, can't do today'
When i was less important than anything
It felt like i was a doll about to fall
You picked me up when you needed
Texted me a 'whats up'
And than put me down
When your friends clowned
But i still don't understand
The reason i still break
And wish you were there
There were good times
For sure there's no lie
But i was always stressed
About your suppress
All i wanted was to be with you
I guess that was too much for you