state of grace | walker scobell

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today is the first table read, and i'm really nervous. i mean...table reading with actual professionals and not just my 8th grade classmates, i mean it's a big step but anyways. i walk over to the studio since it's very close to the hotel i'm at.

i walk in and it feels cold, "um i'm here for a table read for the new movie 'Glass Half Full of Revenge' but i don't know which room it's in." i say, directing my hands towards the empty hallway full of doors. "oh um it's room 1331B" i nod with a smile. i walk over rubbing my hands against my arms since it's cold. i hear fast footsteps behind me and next thing i know i have a jacket and a blond-haired boy with blue eyes making conversation.

"so you excited?" walker asks.

"kinda." i says rolling my eyes a little bit.

"same. i mean i already worked with ryan but i don't know something just feels different...it might be my crush."

"crush on who?"

"oh um please don't tell anyone but um eva leighton"

my heart drops hearing him say that. i nod with fake smile slapped across my face. i start to fasten my pace so walker doesn't see my frown but i stop to give him his jacket back, "thanks but um i don't feel cold anymore." i said handing him his jacket back, with an upside down smile.

i sorta kinda speed up walk away from him. i can feel his eyes on me. "oh hey walker!" i hear behind me from a distance. looking back and seeing eva and walker flirting, which kinda ruined my mood but i quickly got over myself and continued into the room.

the room was very spacious and had a giant conference table in the middle of the room. i sat on the far left since it was where i was told to, walker sat across from me and abby next to him, momona next to me and the others...i forgot he was my love interest for a sec. i look over to eva, who is fawning over walker and the moment i see that i roll my eyes.

momona sits next to me and we start up a conversation, "so you nervous?...me too. i mean doing a table read sounds cool but it really doesn't." i laugh and then she starts to laugh, and we end up laughing together. i see from the corner of my eye, walker give me a longing stare.

i brush him off and ignore walker since it's what i do best. "okay children!" shawn exclaims walking into the room. everybody cheered for him meanwhile i just smiled.

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"BLAIR WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?! GOD YOU ARE SO FUCKING INSUFFERABLE! UGH!" i recite the line.

"Alissa walks off irrated, leaving Blair behind to think back on her actions. The camera moves closer to Blair as a singular tear falls from her eye." someone reads.

"END SCENE! amazing work everybody. we'll pick up where we left off tomorrow." shawn announces, putting his hand up. we all pack up and leave.

i'm the last person out of the room pretty much cleaning up after everyone, "oh my god walker stop." i hear eva say in a really forced girly tone. i walk out with my poker face on but all i had to imagine was that i was a model and the hallway was my runway, "oh hey harp-" i cut him off by leaving him.

i feel his gaze on me as i walk away. i accidentally bumped into momona, "i am so sorry." i explained. "no, no. you're fine." she said shaking her head.

we smile at each other. "so what did you think of the table read?" i shrugged, "it was fine i guess. i gotta go so i'll see you later."

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i walk into the nearest starbucks. ordering my usual, i hear a group of girls screaming and giggling. i look behind me, it's walker. "for fuck's sake" i said rolling my eyes. i didn't know that i said that so loud that it caught walker's attention. i quickly pay for my order and dash to the bathroom.

i stayed in there for a good 5 minutes thinking about what i should say to walker when i get out of here. i open the door to find walker still being surrounded by girls. "ORDER FOR HARPER?" the employee announces. i run to grab my venti iced matcha latte with soy milk and light ice(my actual strbucks order) and ran out of there. i didn't stop running until i made it to the hotel.

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i fell down on my bed from being so tired from all the running i did, my stupid ass took the stairs because i wanted to avoid walker, even though he wasn't even there. someone knocks at my door. i look through the little peephole, it's walker. i pinch myself making sure it's not a dream...again.

i open the door, seeing him with a condesending smirk made me open the door and then close it back up. he put his hand up against the door attempting keep it from closing.

"hey harp, you okay? you kinda ignored me in the hallway AND at starbucks."

"yeah, i'm fine," i mumble to the point where he can't really hear me.

"what was that?"

"I'M...fine," i say shouting the first word but calming down.

"ok jeez. i was just checking up on you because you seemed weird today," he explains in a worried tone.

"well i don't need you 'checking up' on me, okay? i'm fine. i don't need you or your checking up bullshit," i say with enough attitude to make him slam my door on his way out.

i roll my eyes while shaking my head, yes please slam my door on your way out, i think to myself. i thought to myself whether or not i should go over to his room and say sorry.

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i'm at his door. yet i have nothing to say nor have i even knocked.

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