Stability

Mood Swings

Kai P.O.V

Fuck, what an awesome day! I got my ass kicked for the fifth time this week, just fucking awesome. Why does EVERYTHING bad happen to me? Like what the hell did I do to deserve this?!? I'm so done with this life, damn.

I wasn't looking where I was going, running into a small female. Nope, I'm done. "Seriously?!? Get the hell out of my way!", I cursed, grabbing the female and pushing her against the wall.

Not knowing what I was doing, I grabbed her by the neck, "Get the fuck out of my way, you bitch!" The female was gasping for air, oh my god, what am I doing?!?

Letting go, I was so ashamed of myself. I had put hands on a woman, who did nothing to me. I looked up, she was crying. Oh my god.

"I-I'm so sorry. I-i didn't mean to, oh my god. Please, forgive me.", I begged. My blabbering on wasn't doing anything good. She began sobbing.

"It's fine. I'm fine. I am sorry for bothering you.", she apologized. What? Why is she apologizing? I could have killed her, she's so fragile.

"No reason to apologize. My fault, I freaked for no reason.", I said, I felt something from this girl, happiness, maybe? "I'll walk you home if you want?", I asked.

What am I doing? She's probably scared of me, fucking idiot.

"Hm? Oh, uhm, it's a long walk from here. I don't want you have to go out of your way to walk me home. I'm fine, but thanks.", she said.

"Oi, it's not like I have anywhere to go later. C'mon, which way is your place?", I ask. What am I even doing? She's proably fucking scared of me.

"Okay! Sure. My house is this way.", she said, dragging me along. Wait, what's this girl's name?

Fianlly, I built up the courage to ask for her name. Ugh, I hate my anxiety so much. "Soo, do you have a name? I-I am Jongin.", I studder. Shit, Jongin, you're fucking horrible at talking to new people.

She kept walking, didn't even answer my question.

Seriously? Don't fucking ignore me. Raising my voice, "Fucking answer me! Don't act like you can't fucking talk to me just because I'm not a rich fuck like yourself."

"Oh, uhm", she paused- fuck, I'm so fucking stupid," Sorry... But, my name is Aria. Aria Kozlov."

Kozlov? What kind of name is that.

"Kozlov? Where you from. I mean, you look European, but I thought you where a local. Cuz, your fluent.", I asked.

"Moscow. I'm from Moscow, Russia. But, my mother is pure Japanese; Father, pure Russian. I'm just a hybrid, no purebred.", Aria laughed, "I spoke Japanese at home, Russian out in public. I always had an interest in Korea, so I learnt the language, and asked if I could move here when I was 18. I'm still 18."

Ooo, a Russian/Japanese friend. Nice, you scored good, Jongin; for the first time in your entire life.

"Coolio. Born here, raised here, live here forever. That's my life summed up.", I smiled, "I'm not interesting at all, compared to you."

I can't flirt, it's official.

"Meh, I don't care. You seem like a cool male. You tried to strangle me, but it's okay.", Aria joked. "Oi, my place is right here!"

Aww, she has to leave already? Her house was pretty big, big for an 18 year old atleast. Are her parents rich or something?

"Damn, your house is fucking huge. I'm jealous.", I said, "Well I guess I'll get going now."

"Okay! Cool. It was nice meeting you Jongin. Hope we meet again. Sleep well!", Aria said, waving good bye.

Walking, I heard her greet someone. 'Iskra'. Who the hell's Iskra? What does it matter, I'll never see her again.

Ah, why do I even try to make friends?